Monday, January 31, 2005

didnt online ytd cuz my bro ned to his 2 projects..haiz den no choice cant use com...todae was suppose to be a fine dae for me...cuz tat time sick den manage to recover in time and attend sch todae....quite funny principal tok to us..bout how "high" is their expectation is on our class etc...fei hua...everytime sae so mani tins...den we like machine like tat..muz listen to wat they wan....drop to combine or drop 1 pure sub aso muz sae us until like tat...den todae joleen came to tolkd me sometin...and this tin kept me "awake" for the rest of the lesson...luckily no am test todae or else..surely die de..the moment she told me he like...i was so....haiz...tears nearly drop...but i hold them back cuz i dun wan my frenz to worry and duno wat to do bout me.....den was rather sry to them cuz was like nagging how sad i was to them...their mood was like dampe by me...so sry pals!!!..den aso sry to si qian cuz haha was not myself during the sec part of the dae....my heart fell...right to the bottom....i cant blame him..i juz can....wat m i suppose to do....my world reali fell....and picking it up was like....using paper to collect a puddle of water....or izit i should put everytin aside and concentrate on o lvl???? everytin fell without noeing....but i noe i should forget everytin....holding onto these will juz brk my heart more....

got a new hp todae....maybe tats the gd tin God gave me after my suffering frm illness....somehow or another felt rather moody....although got new hp..but didnt get to go parade todae cuz my mum sae my teml still quite unstable..den even service tml she dun let me go...sae wat my throat is still veri bad..so better dun go...where got like tat de....reali cant stand it....sometimes i juz cant get a chance to decide for myself..i noe she did it for me....but...tats not wat i wan...veri sick and tire of everytin..wanna chat wif him actuali online...but when i actuali went to find him...he went away le...no matter wat the reason is....i noe sometin le....which is we'll nv be together...cuz he's still not "stable" enough...as in his mind is still all bout basketball....matches etc....heart fell apart...wanna pick it up....but how....got am test on mon..maybe a chem test aso but dunno which dae...so sian...sian frm everytin...eyes turn swollen ytd....fine this afternoon....gd tin...thx God...and no matter wat...wish him all the best.....

ytd didnt online cuz both my msn and internet got prob..den fall sick ytd....so dun have the energy to wait for the internet to recover...fall sick in sch ytd...haha actuali is this few daes dry cough...den i thurs go eat kfc..actuali is wanna get sick de..is purposely de..but i thought wun so unlucky de..but hu noes..haha i reali fall sick wif bad bad sore throat and bad fever...den refuse to go home..partly is becuz sch ends early so no point...den...haiz him lor...wanna c him ..even though i noe its like...few glance but...still mean lotz to me....somehow feel tat..i'm like crazy over him...haiz...chat wif him on msg ytd...somehow tok quite long..den tok until weather...den told him tat i was sick...but his reaction was like....den u take care of yourself lor...haiz was rather disappointed??? duno la...juz felt tat...maybe in his mind...i'm juz his another fren...and maybe tat's the fact tat i have to accept....den when i went to c doc after sch...she sae tat i'm actuali allergy to this panadol tat i've eaten for my pass 15+ life..and tat last time when i try other kinds of panadol..i'm aso allergy...den she sae i no panadol can eat liao....was scare at tat time...pray tat God will watch over my health and everytin will be fine for me....

came back frm drill and everytin...den in my mind..it was packed wif different tin...veri tire...was nagged by my parents again...gosh...dunno y like tat...everytime like tat...nag until...reali feel like locking myself in the room...live in my own world...dun ned to hear them nag..dun ned to do anitin...they everytin aso can nag...even wat time i eat my dinner aso can sae...i reali got so young until i dunno when to eat ma???den todae in sch..quite okie...not bad...work all these...fine ba i guess...saw him...den feel like...hes avoiding???or am i juz too sensitive???he gave me the feeling tat hes trying to avoid the fact...the fact tat i like him....

todae got chinese test..actuali chinese teacher nv come..so we though no test...but hu noes elvis took the paper in 4 us!!!! haiz so sad...den we got the paper quite late den though no compre...but hu noes again..the e2 chinese teacher brought in the compre 4 us...den its obvious we dun have enough time to do...but the teacher sae...do finish den go recess lor...waliao..where got like tat de...haiz....so wat sia...but afterall i finsih the paper...den todae..haiz dunno how 2 sae...ytd chat wif someone....den haiz afterall i noe how i feel...he's juz some1 whom both of us will nv work...cuz i noe clearly hu's the 1 for me...c him todae again..haha actuali is...i everyday c him la...dunno wats the feeling this time...aniway chem and am test nxt week!!!!!o gosh....haiz...tml drill...stupid sun...juz pray tat God will cover it tml...

didnt blog in ytd cuz bro using internet the whole dae for his project...haiz...but ytd veri happy cuz went to collect my IC !!! yesh!! haha so happy but having tat tin makes me feel tat...afterall i reali "grow up " le...haha a new phrase of my life starting its journey....have a funny feeling but haha c tat card veri "shuang" ...ytd aso haha so called had quite a few talk wif him...veri veri happy..and haiz sometimes dunno whether izzit a gd tin or a bad tin...the more happy i am maybe hu noes....one dae i will fall desperately ... hope tat i wun...and i wish tat i wun...todae aso veri "shuang" .. but felt quite sick this few daes...got "dry cough" ...a little little little change in my voice...had a hard time doing al the test cuz of tat stupid throat....tml chinese test...haiz bout to burn mid nite oil?? haah dunno la ..pray tat God can grant me extra wisdom.... a big change happen to me ever since sch reopen....my attitude toward work is like...haiz dunno le la...so tire of studyuing.....but nw cannot tire de...dunno y...cant concentrate...sian 1/2....a lot of pple sick...haiz tat weather was like....hot cold hot....so sickening....

tml got sch...haiz...sian ar...den after tat surely veri busy...cuz have to rush thru my hw...den one dae waste like tat...no time 4 revision...tats y tue i veri veri busy...haiz...went to angela hse to spend my dae...den the sliper i bough ytd...haiz bite my leg : (...so pain !!!! haiz.... but nvm cuz new de ma...todae fa pi qi at my parents again..dunno wats happening to me..cuz i juz dun seem normal... this liitle ger temper of mine crawl back to me...dunno y...haiz...erm bout to change a new hp...finalli!!!! haha tat hp of mine...nearly going crazy over it le...so.....haiz dun sae le..sae aso angry...haiz father going to malaysia to work arnd june or may...dunno how i feel...will miz him cuz....he my father lei....but okie la...if not everytime like wanna qurral wif him like tat... haiz not gd...this few daes..though bout lotz of tins..where i wanna go after o lvl...this and tat..goals seem to set liao...but dunno izzit God's plan???or tat is juz wat i wan...hope tat God will lead me well in my tinking and can go whereva is best 4 me.......

haiz having mood swing this few daes..dunno wats happening to me...cuz i nv had mood swing be4 ever since i went to sec sch...but dunno y these few daes will like tat...the most funny tin is...my mood swing always happen at home...veri stress these few daes...my world seems to be falling apart...partly becuz of him and aso becuz of sch life...sick and tire of hearing all the teacher saying o lvls...so wat we're taking..no need to sae until so mani times de ma....haiz...veri tire le lei...den tml got piano...luckily my piano teacher didnt stress me ...thank God for tat...feeling rather unwell these few daes...partly cuz lack of slp...den aso becuz lack of water???haha...dunno when will i collapse....but i will try to drag it as long as possible...having gastric prob aso haiz..being nag by mama sae i nv eat..sian 1/2.....

back frm quite a long time haha...tat time xx country..den my leg cramp like siao nw...den got drill todae...veri tire but happy cuz better den badgework....den erm todae...saw him...happy...haha den like tat lor...quite a nice dae..bought a new pair of slippers haha....veri happy....den haiz todae reali dunno la...have got mix feelings for this few daes....when he came back...i was extremly happy....but the feeling veri veri funny...everytime wait for him...until veri late...but dunno y i still wait...i noe i veri tire le...everytime wait until headache cuz lack of slp...but i dun mind...sometimes my effort was not waste...but sometimes...it was...veri sad but i nv regret ...dunno y....waited for his msg...waited for him in msn...haiz...tire le..but dun care...will still go on..until the time my heart reali dies for him...but i tink it wun ....cuz it seems to sink deeper and deeper each dae..haiz this few daes....saw some hypocrites....reali hate them lotz..y they like tat de...cant they be true???haiz...

todae haha...went for xx country...erm quite a short dae...at first actuali dun wanna run de...still wanna walk the whole journey...but dunno y...when they start running..haha i aso run...den run wif wan lian and hui jin..veri funny...den discover tat my stamina reali improve a lot...haha i run not bad lei...haha onli not within top 20 which is expected haha...but still thank God tat he lead me through tat long long journey...nxt week got 2 math test and 1 sc...haiz again wat a stressful week...tml need to cook haha how lei...i dun noe how to fry an egg....how 2 cook aiyo haha...den today of cuz i saw him...happy...reali happy...but he somehow gave me feeling tat i'm juz another fren of his...he gave me a feeling he juz avoiding me...avoiding the feeling and everytin i put on him...sad...feel extremly sad...but all these..i cant do anitin...haiz other den tat..todae reali a veri bad dae of every1....a lot of tins happen...wat's happening???

back again again frm 3 daes of studies....sian tire and everytin....back pain ever since cheerleading ...den plus al thos stupid bks...haiz i doubt my back wun turn beter if it remains like tat....haiz...he's back...finalli...but duno y...my heart veri sour....veri veri...everytin changes...change until i juz cant take it..veri veri tire le....

hiii haha back again...hmmm....wat have i miz out lei....this few daes...torture for me...but the most happy tin is...i tok to him a lot haha...reali reali a lot...feel so happy....tat time thurs...need 2 stay back frm drill...my mama veri unhappy and she qural wif me..like i luv to go like tat...den she sae wat o lvl still like tat...den sae i learn piano den nv practice waste her $$$...ask me to drop...but y muz i drop sometin i like so much...is not i nv practice...is i noe when to practice..i juz wanna c along wif my mood...she like tat aso cannot..haiz i noe she juz wanna save the $$$ and she reali care 4 me lotz...i noe...but i'm old enough to noe when i can take it and when i can still carry on....haiz den still got ..haiz stress on worship...test....den she kept nagging me on everytin...gosh...but thank God..she nw understand me lotz le...let me handle myself everytin...den the worship..although i still feel not gd..but its better den last week...feel contented alrdy....den test...all finish studying le...juz leave it to God ba...den haiz he will be away a while...miz him..reali will...but will he noe???haiz....nvm maybe tat's wat God wans ba..with him away..i can concentrate more on my 3 testes and after the testes he wil be back ...

back again....making further changes to my blog..hah a veri plain but maybe tat's the best i can do??haha .....got quite a bad gastric pain todae...the tummy wasnt feeling veri gd....but todae quite happy cum sad actuali....stayed in sch wif him and a grp of frenz...veri happy cuz can c him...but...aso got to knw some tins....izzit tat my world is reali falling????gosh....but frm the other guys mouth i got to noe sometins haha...felt rather relieve...i can onli sae i miz him more each dae....wat is he to me???y izit tat this tin happen???haiz...again waiting 4 him...tml got drill....haiz forget it..drill more maybe can clean the memory of him...hope so even thoug he aso will be there...nxt week got test...math and chem ba....haiz jia you ba....no choice le...haiz okie ba nxt time continue....

haha juz change the background...finali got to figure out how 2 do....haiz todae ar...quite a tire dae...this few daes...got to c him in sch...was both shock and paiseh...haha reali dunno wat to do...but dun wish 2 tink too much...juz let nature take its course ba...aniway i aso cant do anitin...o lvl this yr...aso cant afford to tnk too much...this few daes juz cant seem to concentrate in class....ARGH... reali veri scare...wats happening to me i aso dunno...i juz dun seem to be wat i was in the past....cant even understand some simple tins...my whole mind was like filled totally wif him...haiz muz stop this or else reali no one can save me le...every nite i was like...waitin 4 him??? even though veri tire but juz feel tat its worth it....haiz reali going out of mind le....haven been practicing my piano for like...few daes???? haiz taking grade 8 after my o lvls..muz jia you cuz i cant waste my mama $$$....all the best to me ba haha...cant tahan le will add on nxt time....

hey hey haha....first time doing this tin...erm quite fun actuali...but still muz special thx my mo mo ren( jocelyn)..cuz haha she help me do until so nice...thx lotz...haha erm tat's all? haha

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

GLAMOUR

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shermaine jessilyn qian angela jocelyn jolene sarah jolie leonard joleen mei xiang sumei yvonne jun wen melissa jiawen chern fern jeslyn jocez cindy nicholas eileen elvis fifa melvin sabrina xinyan hui wen ting felicia meili jia ying yingsi yeok ling ru yin jason derrick info darryl debbie hui ling heng kai ken baby alissa shu hua alvin david brenda jonathan nico jing han shui fan hong hwee diana

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