Wednesday, November 30, 2005

sec tin i wanna sae n thx God is...on my first dae of work..i onli got 4 hrs of slp???n past few daes i nv slp tat much...soo tiring...reali...prayed for strength upon me..n indeed it was fine..first dae nth to do !!!!! we kept talking n here we r getting our pay!!!! thx God for tat...n sec dae finali i got sometin to do..its not tough cuz we get to sit..juz have to be gd n dun do wrong can le...thx God for evertin

back frm camp earlier...veri sad on tat dae..broke down...this is wat happens :
my dad stopped working cuz he cant handle the stress...no one is working in my family...my bro worked for his own use...tat's veri sensible of him...nv add stress to my parents...i wanna be like him..so i looked for job..at first..to me i thought i will nv get the motorola job i wan...but thx God..he gave me...but the tin is the first dae is 28 nov..which means to sae...i have to go back home frm yc earlier...at first i thought :aiya go ome onli ma i juz let jc noe can le(tat's the first dae of camp) hu noes...on the 3rd dae...i refuse to go home...ive tried my best during the past dae...try my best to be a gd testi..hoping my grp members could accept christ...nw i haven c anitin...n ive to go home??? i veri bu gan yan..on the 3rd dae my mum kept pressing on my...asking me to go home..i was stuck...so stuck...1st i wanna fulfil my purpose of goin yc...i wanna c the result..2nd my mum kept wanting me to go home...God sae cannot disobey parents...den how???both is for God..i was so stressed up..n finali i broke down..luckily i went out to take the call..cuz i broke down as im toking to my mum..i dunno wat to do...tat's the 1st time i cried for sooooo long...i juz cant stop...wat am i going to do??? how can i be a gd testi at home?? to others?? how??? when i cant even decide on this simple tin...eventually someone prompt me to pass the phone to j....so i gave him..he explained to my mum bout my purpose in yc..okie done so i stayed still 230 be4 j send me home...thx to him n sry for everytin...between tat thx to hua n angela..both held me on when i nearly crashed...leonard too...tok to me n haha first time tink hes quite gd aso ma...haha( tat's another tin side track le)..i thought everytin was fine..hu noes..when i got home..my mum still cant understand...she was a christian !!!! n she cant understand me!!!! cant understand my purpose of going yc..y like tat???den ok forget it...i juz leave it to God...
on this tin...i learned sometin..veri wonderful...this to me is like a veri precious lesson cuz this is the first time im caught in such a big situation..at least God reali noes my limit..he gave me frenz...if not for them..ive alrdy fallen apart..cuz this is like tearing me apart...
thx to all !!!!
i miz my "family"....didnt wanna leave them on the last dae de....sry guys..thx edwin for being a wonderful AGL...

we've talked ytd..its funny..the feeling is reali funny....i noe veri well her motive..but i juz willing to let her use ba...aniway uz bu she de c her like tat...haha dun worry im not les...haha juz wanna do a part as a senior n as a fren..though dun like her..but cant deny tat..she quite ke lian...

my whole shoulder was aching..haha dunno wat's happening...aniway wat's going on in my life!!!!! im getting short term memory lost..

finali its over haha but im not happy at all...gonna miss a lot of tins..dunno lei....juz miss lor...den haiz...a lot of tins..the life in smb sec..even though i dislike tat sch a lot...but no matter wat..got memory de ma...a lot of them..gd plus bad....but nw onli got gd ones...bad ones r long forgotten..they should be forgotten de bu shi ma?? gonna miss lotz of frenz...the daes we sit in class..even though sometimes will bu xuang some of their actions..but reali will still miss lor...even is miss the bad points of them..it is aso a memory...aniway looking for jobs these few daes..a lot of tins crash..reali crash a lot...but i pray for tins to sort out...
sometimes i reali cant stand her...dunno wat's runing in her mind..last time wun so bad..nw more n more worst...pray for patience in me...haha im afraid one dae i will flare up...i noe i wun but the feeling inside is terrible...reali terrible...
todae veri veri superb cold..dunno wat's going on...keep on raining...den the temp veri low..this is the first time i actuali poured hot water for consumption haha..damn cold...but discover tat the water is tooooo hot..haha so have to drink by sip....
spotted lotz f tins to buy..haha but a litle prob coming up....but have no fear cuz i surely got a way..cuz God wil provide me de...


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ive decided to leave u...leave u for gd...nv gonna return....even til the dae uve sort out ur tinkings..aso no use...cuz we're juz not meant to be....maybe u r not aware..but i can c veri clearly tat...the past memories hadnt creap out of ur mind...

todae lei haha sc MCQ...haha finali after todae officailly gonna over le o lvls...haha haiz so sian...this few months thought of a lot of tins...feel tat some matters muz end...n stop...

soooo sian this few daes....left one more paper tml...combine sc MCQ...haha dunno wat's gonna happen aniway to me the exam has alrdy been over for a long long time...his few daes duno wat im doing...juz play play lor...den ytd wear contact lens..haha i took 30 mins to put it in...n is asoanihow put de..den it goes in haha den gd lor...tat time went to orchard den discover how long ive nv been to there le....haha fashion change i aso dunno..dn me qian lian n belinda look until the head giddy den eyes tire..haha so tat's it la..nth happen juz same old stupid tins..aniway going camp this fri...

haha this few daes lei..haven finish exam wo..but..i veri sian le...most of my papers ended in the first week of o lvls...2nd week onli left wif a math paper...n finalli last week onli got sc mcq..quite free ba...hmm wat can i sae lei...ytd i watched wang zi bian qing wa...finished the whole set..haha veri veri happy..but wat can i sae lei..i feel tat everytin is too fairytale le ba..after watching eerytin...when everytin returned back to normal...reality came..nth in this world could be so mei man ba...the world isnt tat gd afterall....its too chaotic ....full of liars hypocrites....so sick n tire of everytin...

hmm amath paper later on..hah so decided to post sometin before i "go" haha....erm this few daes were fine...n erm like tat lor...kinda have lotz of pro wif my blog...preview it lei den can c the chinese words...if not..cant..wat's wrong!!!! or is it my com??? cant be ma..haha nvm cant c cant c lor..aha nxt time got time den i translate..haiz but bu gan xin lei...haha dun care nxt time tink of a way...surely got way de....hao le...gonna go le..bye la ^-*

jay zhou
为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲 纪念我死去的爱情 跟夜风一样的声音 心碎的很好听 手在键盘敲很轻 我给的思念很小心 你埋葬的地方叫幽冥 为你弹奏萧邦的夜曲 纪念我死去的爱情 而我为你隐姓埋名 在月光下弹琴 对你心跳的感应 还是如此温热亲近

yan zi
我已经 已经把对白流成了永远 忘了天色 究竟是黑是灰

我的眼泪写成了诗已是无所谓

多想化成隐形的人 掩饰我伤痕 给你我的体温 好帮你驱走寒冷 看不见也能感受心疼 我想化成隐形的人 隐藏我的泪在翻滚 我在你凌乱世界 留下的指纹 对你是没心跳的一个吻

yang chen ling
暧昧让人变得贪心 直到等待失去意义 无奈我和你 写不出结局 放遗憾的美丽 停在这里

好想知道你的100分 会给怎样的人 亲爱的你不要再陌生 增加我戏份 我想问 亲爱的你把感情升等 朋友变成情人 可不可以 告诉我标准 不要让我一直等

你看著我说千万不要爱上我 因为你只会让我伤心别傻了快点喊停

原来为爱流的眼泪 也是种甜蜜滋味

wang zi bian qing wa
一天一點 你漸漸走遠 我卻像空氣被忽略 只怪我的愛不夠勇敢

finali most bad daes r over...nw is onli wif a math..gonna work hard...hmmm everytin's fine??? results will okie ma??? haiz i aso dunno seriously....juz leave everytin to God...ive done my best....exceed my best le...so...haha like tat lor....juz wish for the best of cuz..hu dun wan gd results...i aso wan..aniway i juz believe...u get wat u put in...aniway its like a dream...soo fast...o lvl is half way...veri happy..but sad at the time..cuz this signifies tat....we've all grown up..tins have to end...our life in sec sch is like so short n stressful...nw we're going to leave each other...first step is to work....sec step new sch...etc...but sometimes reali hope...tat sec sch can be longer..becuz....sec sch life is always the best...full of memories...n tat's when u reali c true frenz n fake ones...its reali amazing...n sometimes i reali hope tat...all i c is true frenz..i noe some of them were..but the rest is rather disappointing..n this world is veri funny...u can nv be always on the top...when u fall its terrible...but when u fall...it means tat some gd tins r waiting for u...so another belief of mine : when u lost sometins dun cry cuz there r sometin gd waiting 4 u behind...wait patiently n faithfully n u will get it...n six ties lei...can onli sae..they r the best ones...n i believe they r the true ones.... ( dun disappoint me wor) haha i noe u guys wun..juz wanna sae im not a veri gd fren..haha i tink la..always tok wrong tins..but thx guys..cuz u all always tolerate me..nv scold me or wat...xie xie ni men

hey hey exams going on..bout to over le..jia you jia you...tml bio paper all the best belinda pat n me ^-*

actuali when i watch shows...i aso will wonder...i wonder lotz..i will tink...y in show a couple can luv till soooooo sad n sooooo tiring....but eventually they end up tgt....sooo sweet....but in real life reali can like tat ma??? real life mani tins crop up...y fairy tales always seem so gd...haiz...den aso in shows...one will luv a person till cry till red eyes or wateva...so touching...haiz haha dreaming again le wor...sometimes i juz reali wonder..in real life got so dramatic ma???haha can find true luv alrdy veri gd le...
nxt week o lvl start le..all the best....one whole wek of subs...den sec week onli am hah lame ba..den third week worst..onli one sc mcq haha..lame 1/2..aniway all the best everyone ^-*
sixties n rest...jia you

seven flowers--- wo zhi xiang yao
我好想抱著你訴苦 卻顯得好無助 無助的讓人想痛哭 我只想要 和你在一起 朝著幸福走去 像戀人般的簡單甜蜜 我只想要 和你不分離 怎麼輕易放棄 說你忘記 愛情怎麼會讓每顆心都碎 我不再相信你 卻又慢慢想起你

ru guo ni ai guo wo ni bu hui jui zhe yang zuo
jiu zhe yang dui xia wor he na xie tian zhen chen nuo

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

GLAMOUR

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