Thursday, June 30, 2005
hmmm how long have i not touch blog le?? haha dunno lei...haiz wat to sae lei..this few daes sch juz reopen...quite stress lor...den todae still got olvl chinese oral...haiz..sian ar...feel tat i slack down quite abit...soooo muz jia you...ccanot slack...todae the oral okie la..quite easy...seriously lor...den yea dunno how had i done for the chinese...pray for the best..reali..cuz tat is the best sub so far..other sub i not tat confident...the sub i best is in chinese le..so juz pray for it lor...den yea...gonna jia you...seems to be like bo chap bout my bio..duno y..juz c the bio den haha dunno la...gonna jia you...cuz wanna take bio medical when i g poly de...so muz jia you
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
hey hey on fri went to ms june hse to stay..haha veri funny lor suddenly go..mani ppl ask y....i aso dunno...juz go lor...den she prepare lotz of food...everytin was soooo nice...haha sooo nice...she veri gd lor...den we stay until veri happy...nxt dae mr jonathan brought us tgt wif her to have breakfast at HAN....den veri nice after tat went to sch tgt..got enrollment service...reach there everytin start veri late...den yea cant reali practice...den when the tin start veri funny lor.cant feel tat it start le..haha den veri paiseh when rehearsal tat time..my score drop onton the floor...damn paiseh lor..den i cant play cuz drop...den luckily ms eunice came and help me pick up...den i continue to play...but after tat it dropped again...haiz soo wat lor...den when the actuali tin came...i used sarah's file..haha thx ger..if not the score surely drop again...den okie la but starting veri wat lor....the keyboard i cant hear anitin...worst is..i learn the song by hearing de...i cant hear anitin reali blur lor...den no choice try my best...dunno how i played cuz reali cant hear...heng kai and von aso cant hear me den like the beat not veri gd lor..but luckily everytin was over le...gd experience...but dunno lei...quite scary lor...10 july another one...pianst for jonathan's worship during service...haiz veri scare lei but jia you ba..pray for God's wisdom
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Friday, June 24, 2005
been tinking of sometin for ages...the tins btw me and him happen sooo funny....we noe each other for 4 yrs le...mani tins happen...like wat he sae...tins come and go....he chose to let it go...nw wanna let it stay..and he regreted...nw my turn le...i wanna let it go...i rather everytin to juz go...aniway it wans...sometimes i wonder...fairy tale ..true de ma??? if im gonna let go..and both of us were to turn our heads away...willl we be back tgt????been tinking for a veri long time...reali cherish all the frenz and happiness....hao bu rong yi can like forget the first pain...den dunno lor...dun feel like going into another pain....since both of us went thru soo mani tins...haha feel like trying...try to juz let go and c wat happen nxt............
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{11:55 AM,â¥}
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
hey hey haha back again to post the sec time of the dae...dunno y haha suddenly can finish so mani essay qns at a time...nw left bout 3 more haha thx god...hm....the onli tin tat shock me is one of the GB officer...mdm michelle verma frm the 3rd coy...haha shes sooo damn great....reali a veri nice lady hu plays 11 sports and plays the guitar which she learn herself de..no one teach her de...den shes aso a pro in drill and pro in first aid!!!!! haha shes sooo blessed reali....haha and she aso won all sorts of adventure stuff and etc...reali great..and guess wat..shes onli 18 this yr!!!! haha same age wif my bro...reali great lor..cant expect her to play so mani sports and yea she aso veri hyper de....a veri nice officer and a PBB receipent...haiz she so li hai haha....den yea like tat lor...haaaha hu can be like her lei...nobody ba i guess....bought myself a happy hse pencil box ytd!!!! the one i liked for ages haha soo nice the butterfly de...den yea wanna buy mp3 at first de..but guess wat..when i went there i wanna buy the one i like but den tink tink no FM lei so i thought of buying elvis mp3 the same kind la...den haiz guess wat she sae no stock le!!!! den okie i dun wanna buy le..but after tat i tink tink...i dun listen to FM when im outside de aniway if i wana listen FM at home i got hi fi ma so its okie de lor...so i wanna buy the one i like de...okie so i went back and when i wanna buy the lady sae...tat one got 1 left but tat one is not full set..meaning dun have ear piece la bla bla bla,....haha wat the...reali funny lor where got like tat ede..den tink tink maybe its God's will ba..maybe he tinks i should wait...haha reali funny lor...i mean too much coincedence tat make me feel tat Gods promting me....aniway still got a new pencil box so haha..nvm....can wait de ma mp3..aso guitar wanna buy but not tat soon i guess.....i believe i juz gonna wait ba...wanna make sure i buy the one tat suits me...like wat angela sae..steel de veri pain..but veri nice...nylon not pain but not tat nice...haha gonna tink properly...haha going ms june hse to stay on fri!!!! haha so excited....den sat got enrollment service...going to reach sch by 1050...haha tire lor..
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okie so after the last time i post the rest of the daes i was damn tire..dunno y i still got swolen eye when i woke up in the morning..but todae okie le..better liao...on mon and tue went to sch den tue went to rehearsal for enrollment..ke lian ar angela have to go wif me haha...den after tat stayed for the worship on 10 july...haha so funny lor too tire for everytin thx God cherie was there so she could help me wif the melody..lighten my load lotz haha....juz pray for God wisdom ba haha....this few daes better le not tat tire..den te melody and all these qi qi baba le bout to complete...den yea hw too bout to complete le...but veri sian lei haha sch gonna reopen soon...studies first le...haha dunno y feel rather relac....thx mo mo ren haha wat u sae was right...i can concentrate more and yea i feel more relac n no need to consider so mani stuffs like before....haha....bu kui is my mo mo ren....yea after tat tin...juz feel more relax lor...no matter wat happen...tins r better le...and yea feel the care and concern frm lotz of pple...since i cant forget..juz take it as a lesson lor...need not purposely avoid...juz normal ba...nw the situation is like last time...yea more freedom and stuff...juz gonna study hard for my parents sake and my own sake...gonna jia you....n aso lastly for gods sake.....gonna try to be better and please him more and more each dae...gonna jia you in music n studies...all the best lor...haha aso gd luck to my pals for every exams.....
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{12:29 PM,â¥}
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Monday, June 20, 2005
okie so im back frm PBB camp aka s-camp....so duno e how to sae...start frm first dae ba..
firstly i woke up at 6am when actualithe dae before i slept at 12 plus!!! so tire lor the nxt dae haah cuz i feel tat i not enuff slp...den okie woke up go bathe den change full u..tie hair bla bla bla..haha had honey starz for breakfast..haha soo nice but veri hungry lor afterwards..haha den okie went to meet xiao hua the rest..den okie le left belinda..she was late!!!!den we waited for her but she went to the campsite herself without teling us!!!! so haha den yea after tat ms sharon gave us our last pioneer badge and gave us drill stage 3!!! haha so happy lor...full lei haha..den yea went to register...den yea the camp starts and meet my grp members...all the 5 of us kana spread lor...all spread den veri lonely...den thx God he reali care for me during the camp lor....firstly he gave me a grp...tat is reali veri nice..we click the first time we meet and we damn gd wif each other lor..reali close and we crap lotz...onli maybe got one or two gers they like veri anxious bout the presentation and all den sometimes the tins the sae quite qian bian haha but yea overall they r nice...but tat;s not the case..my grp memebers were fun..not the rest of the campers...they realii lor..50% hypocrites 50 % were ture lor...haiz...reali lor....for the brooch they can do anitin!!! haiz...den yea first dae okie le sec dae was like..sian sian sian sian...so wat lor...the camp was okie i juz hate those hypocirtes lor..they r gd leaders..but so wat..they dun even noe the basic..respect for others....they dun respect us..frm neighbouring sch..so wat if they r frm gd schs..haiz....duno wat to sae lor..den officers okie la juz tat we feel the camp is....meaningless...84 campers how can they be sooo sure they can c everyone's real attitude....tat's y the evalution form the 5 of us wrote all lot lor..all those we not happy wif de.....
God reali gd to me..apart frm the grp tin....i lost my evalution form at first..soooo scare officer will scold me..den luckily my fren got mine haha...prayed to God at first and imediately it was found!!! thx god..den yea still got a lot lor..reali reali nice to me..thx God....and aso yea rmb le...i was in the worship com and i played the keyboard during my grp's worship secssion...den i was like..duno lor cuz i cant pracise cuz the keyboard is in the auditorum...so the onli time i can practice is 30 mins before the actual worship!!!! i was like prayed to God tat everytin will be fine and i can figure out the melody within the time limit...thx God i reali did it!!!! reali thx him lotz....juz tat a lot of tins happen and the faith in me gets stronger each dae.....
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{8:57 PM,â¥}
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
haha back again wao so fast hor haha no la juz change the music...veri ncie de..sylvester suo yi..veri ncie song like it lotz...
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{12:47 PM,â¥}
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aiyo die le la haha.....tml going camp le..tat's not the big prob..the biggest prob is tat....my hw haven finish!!!!! 8 qns of ss structured qns and 2 sets of incomplete amath paper which id damn badly done...do le i feel so paiseh...wat kind of work is tat!!! haha so bad lor reali..do until veri bad..den still got amath tb a lot of qns haven complete den the techer juz continue giivng tons and tons of hw....haiz like as if we onli study their sub like tat..i noe they veri xin ku..but we aso !!!! haiz den erm yea dunno how to complete lor seriously...tml going camp le veri excited...but the hw i face todae reali stress me out....so sian gonna revise chem later haha....haiz sometimes reali dunno i so guai for wat...haiz...haah quite bhb la i noe haha...den erm yea my lao po and frenz todae coming home le...but is at nite..so sian...so long nv c them..reali feel the siannes in me haha...first time lei we seperate like one country frm the other...den my xiao er zi not in spore tooo...haha so wat lor...all go le left me and jin and qian...cuz we lit de ma haha...dunno la reali miz them lor..esp wan lian..haven been fighting wif her for the past few daes..so sian...haha sometimes reali tink tat she veri ke lian lor...have to waste so much energy on me..ke lian ar haha....okie la sch reopen dun treat her so bad...dun sae i bu hao i sch reopen treat her better ba...yea gonna go le maybe post again at nite...nw gonna go do my tons of hw...bye ~~~
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{12:36 PM,â¥}
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
hey hey veri long nv post anitin le...cuz this few daes my cousin was at my hse den didnt reali on my com to post anitin...haiz xiao hua they all went for geo field trip haha kinda miz them lei...haha this few daes didnt go out...get some rest be4 returning to sch the nxt nxt week??? haha soooo funny everytin was so fast...juz like tat 2 weeks of hols is over...and nw the third week is bout to end too....haha gonna end third week wif the PBB camp...PBB camp is on fri till sun...veri funny camp...believe mani tins will happen tat will lead all the gers into dunno wat..haha but believe in the strength of the lord tat everytin will be fine...hmmm.....one big qns all the officers have been giving me...y dun wanna baptise since u r frm a christian family??? haha seriousli i was baptised when im a baby le...den need to baptise the sec time den can take holy commuion....i aso dunno y but tat's wat my mum have been telling me ...i aso dunno y i dun wanna get baptise....my mum aso ask me y not?? i dunno..maybe not mentally prepared? haha dunno la gonna consider this whole tin again.....muz take serious consideration as in which church im gonna stay in....den erm yea i was put in the worship com in PBB camp...i wanna be in games com de..cuz tat's wat im most familar in...i dunno i in games com gd ma but i onli noe tat's wat i normally do ma....those serious worship stuff not for me de...games more crazy den suits me..but dunno y i was put in the worship com..kinda disappointed but when i slowly tink maybe God wan me to glorify him in worship ba...games dunno la but since he put me in there im gonna accept it and pray tat i will make lotz of frenz and not be bored by everytin!!!! haha
and lastly gd news wor!!!! im back !!!! the old enci..no more tears no more sadness and no more worries....juz joy laughter and fun!!! yea finali everytin was out of my mind and nw i can truely stand out and sae im no longer sad le...dunno y there's a sudden change in me...juz noe tat maybe God finali straingten out my thoughts ba..not gonna get stress up by tat matter le...dun wanna noe anitin bout him le juz frenz ba..gonna be frenz...but dunno lei haha haven contact for quite long...nvm ba i guess...haha
argh...sick this few daes..so shuang haha my cousin came den at nite we didnt slp much cuz we were busy toking on the phone wif our frenz haha so funny we chat den when we slp we juz left the phone beside our bed..haha yea veri fun den nw i sick cuz too tire le hahah pray for gd health so tat i can go PBB camp...muz jia you eat more fruits den more vitamin C haha.....all the best frenz for the PBB camp..gonna try our best!!!! God bless....
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{6:15 PM,â¥}
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
todae haah duno how to describe lei..whole life was like more and more cherful le.....thx god..went to service todae...yea wat the pastor sae was rite..we should do tins to please God and not becuz we need to do them...haiz veri tire reali but yea by faith everytin will solve.....one side i alrdy give up le...nw is the other side...i dunno lor...gonna c wats God plan for me...i believe tat he noes wats best for me...
todae early in the morning got service ma so went to church after tat went to northpoint...haiz so sian lor...at first went there for lunch den so sian after tat still okie juz nearly gonna rot lor...was like shop here shop there...everywhere we aso can shop haha..den yea after shop le we reali veri sian but still veri early so dun wanna go home..so we went to the cinema and we saw a veri tall guy..ang moh la den he wear a costume frm the charlie and the chocolate factory tat show....he was there giving coco....den i was like so scare den i ask xiao hua and angela to quickly go..but the guy saw us and ask us to stop..den i was so scare den i walk veri fast..but i didnt noe is...the guy even faster and he was juz behind me but i dunno...xiao hua wanna tell me de but she duno how to sae/...den when i turn i was so shock to c a tall guy in a sily costume den i was like shouting..so scare nearly cry out sia haha veri scary lor..den he was like asking if we wan coc but i sae no..den after tat when we walk into the arcade at the cinema there my heart was like pumping like duno wat lor...reali veri scary til nw i some sort still shivers a little..reali ma..canot blame me haha...den yea after tat my ah ma came to lookk for me in northpoint...my parents was away and shes here to "take care" of me..actuali is sort of make sure i nv do anitin "bad" haha ...den yea went home wif angela and my ah ma den went out again for dinner..den yea after tat went home...den i go bathe...den i vacumm the floor and mop the floor!!!! haha damn tire lor..but nvm la nw the floor cleaner so okie veri shuang haha...the floor was like damn dirty lor cuz my cousin still young ma den he make the hse so dirty...den my parents away no one tidy..no choice i have to do haha...yea tat's all i guess...juz continue doing hw..hope tat everytin can be done before PBB...PBB coming le..juz pray tat the 5 of us can get the broch..muz jia you wor gers!!!!
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{9:24 PM,â¥}
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
haiz ytd was a big dae..reali bad...the sec time i let out everytin ba...sooo angry and reali cant take it..veri sad..veri luan..a lot of feeliings juz run thru me and make me reali cant tahan...haiz...
todae went to sch..ytd didnt slp tat well...seriously i didnt slp well...so todae when wake up is like...wao so damn tire...cant take it but stil went to sch..den veri xin ku..cuz veri tire den no strength to listen in class...den a mth todae duno is can take it or not..juz pray tat wisdom is upon me ba....reali hope tat....den yea after the a math suppp..den we went home ..but be4 tat got meeting at mac..be4 tat...saw the p3 gers returning frm their adventure camp..can c the tireness in their expressions..but i aso can feel tat they did a great job this time round haha...gd job gers!!! go take a rest ba..pray tat they learn some useful lessons for them...den yea after saeing bye to them went to mac to meet xiao hua and angela for the PBB camp meeting..need to plan some sort of speech tin..haha we so crazy sia down theere haha play till veri siao lor...but was like cuz veri tire ma...so after tat on the journeyy to ms sharon hse i was like so quiet not becuz of wat..but becuz i veri tire den no mood to tok...den at cell everytin was so relax...for tat short period of time i reali suddenl;y feel relax yea listen to God's word and this and tat...den discover how far i had gone away frm God...bad signal!!! wake up ger!!!! haiz...reali hope i can be back hu i am...the hyper active ger hu become more and more mature and noes how to handle tins...many tins happen to me this yr and yea indeed veri gd learning lesson..not gona blame anione for anitin...instead thx God for the wonderful lessons learnt....haiz even though i nv blame anione..but the heart still aches....aches lotz....reali wish tat one dae i can juz leave every single ache and be back the enci i was.....so sickening was like pulled back by unnecessary feelings...
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{9:22 PM,â¥}
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Friday, June 10, 2005
yea im not old....mature....strong enuff to tahan everytin...cant take it.....but trust me..i will be me...juz need time..reali need it
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{11:05 PM,â¥}
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todae was a fun dae..veri fun ba....went out early in the morning...go shop shop wif angela jin and wan lian.....veri fun ba....one of my fren cannot go...haiz i noe she veri sian...dun sad le my fren...everytin is juz a miscommunication...we can always go out tgt again de...no need to scare no chance...dun worry ^-*......went out den yea went to k box....sing sing play play..den after tat we went to bugis..go take photo..shop shop den veri veri tire le...den go sit at the foodcourt...den sit there rest rest eat eat..after tat cant tahan le den go home..took the train frm bugis to raffles den to marina den take right back to smb....so gd haha got seat ma....den yea after reach home arnd dunno la my aunt frm malaysia preparing herself to go back malaysia le...she came on last sat den todae go home...tgt wif my cute cousin...den my mama and papa aso go back c my grandma and go relax....haha so gd actuali i aso wanna go de..go relax ma..but bu she de lor....dun wish to go...stil wanna stay and complete my mountain of hw and revisions....den yea reali cant make it lor...aniway after my aunt left...haiz my hse was in a mess!!!!!! haha and im gonna clear everytin!!!!haiz haha no choice i onli ger ma...my kor kor so tire so i do lor...gonna mop the floor tml and clear everytin...
haiz many tins reali happen...reali dunno how to reacte..sry to him ba....i noe i seems like bo chap like tat...but im clear bout wats hapening de,...im not deaf and blind wat he do wat he sae wat he feel i aso noe i reali noe i juz dunno wat to do ...wat he expect me to do???? i reali dunno....i juz feel so kinda werid...its always better to feel the luv den to produce the luv.....when u luv someone its damn freaking tire....cuz u r always the one giving....and the one hu recieves will be damn selfish cuz he will nv noe how hurtful it is to luv....maybe he noes ba but not tat much...on the other hand...if u r the one hu recieve the luv..everytime will change 180 degrees....u will feel the luv soooooo gd....haiz....y muz i be the one suffering???? y can one person juz turn h i s head away and sae bye???? where got like tat de?????
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{9:09 PM,â¥}
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
veri sick these few daes..indeed i didnt go to sch ytd...reali cant tahan not i dun wanna go...went to sch todae for a long dae of el soooo tiring.....dunno wats happening to me...since tat...i;ve been eating lotz...reali lotz....luckil weight and size is still there...haiz wanna learn lesson..i learn le...i shouldnt have lied to....i should have agree soooooo soon....i shouldnt let everytin be like tat...the onli tin i noe..is i've done my best le....sry to....i cant trust anitin nw....juz take it tat im avoiding ba..i cant trust anitin animore...seriously i can trust ......but i still hope for....reali....duno wat im doing....juz sry ba.....
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{8:21 PM,â¥}
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
hey hey back again...ytd didnt post ba i guess cuz i was veri tire and most of my time i was outside...haha my journey veri pack wao...firstly i went to sch in the morning...den got lesson till like 1??den after tat i went home...go change my bag den i went out again...wasnt feeling well the past few daes so i went to c a doc..quite okie onli common flu....bout to be down wif a terrible sore throat but will get better ba i guess....den after c the doc..i went to katib for my piano lesson..haha my cousin put his toys in my bag and make me damn paiseh..i was sooo paiseh when i open my bag and my teacher was like luffing at me.....haha 1 hr lesson 30 mins she was luffing....haha luckily my lesson is individual de....haha if not my face surely...haha....den yea after tat went home after my piano lesson...was bout 7 plus le...den rush thru my dinner cuz i veri hungry...hah this few daes was like..foreva hungry...nv full de..always found myself eating....after my dinner..indeed i'm still hungry....so went to sun plaza and bought lotz of tins to eat..haah fill my stomach till full full...den yea after tat went home and rest watch tv and slp at bout 11 plus going to 12...den todae haha sooo funnny i woke up late!!!! i didnt noe or should sae i forgot tat lesssons start early todae..and i was like late for 10 mins..haha soo paiseh....den the lesson was like 3 hrs...den veri tire le ma....so near the end i was like there shaking leg?? haha veri rough i noe but tat's me ma....i always shake leg de haha..den veri paiseh when mrs goh sae enci pls dun shake ur leg le haaaha den zhi xiang they all down there shout sae ENCI SHAKE LEG!!!!! haha soooooooo damn paiseh lor...haha ...no choice i reali veri tire and sian le lei....haiz
later going out again ba haha my hol hw was like still in a mountian state...haha bad lei....yea sat going out for meetings and stuffs dunno how to reject sometins seriosuly...hard lor....
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{12:16 PM,â¥}
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
quite sian todae....wake up at arnd 9 and prepare a little den went out to meet xiao hua and angela for service...veri tire cuz i didnt slp well...my cousins came and my room was given to them...and i gonna slp at my mums room...haiz den veri tire..haha but nvm la...den after service went to bishan j8 for lunch....den angela and my xiao er zi went to look for mp3...den i sun bian go c got anione i like ma...haah had been wanting to buy one..but didnt noe which 1...den todae at j8 saw 1 tat i like lotz....but 512mb onli...dunno will it be enuff for me..hope so ba haha maybe will be buying it as soon as possible....veri sian tml still need to go sch for lessons...soo sian veri tire...hw still haven do haha miss fok surely veri angry de haha dun care...den tml got piano...haah veri tire...was looking for the score sheet for ballade pour adeline...cant find it.....so sad..trying to find the whole book of songs composed by paul de senniville...haha dunno stilll got ma...surely quite ex de..haha nvm dun care...haha...haiz still cant get over tat heart necklance....maybe will be buying it tgt wif the mp3...pray tat my mama will let me buy
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{4:46 PM,â¥}
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Saturday, June 04, 2005
todae was a veri tiring dae...woke up veri early cuz my aunt coming to my hse..she juz came frm malaysia...haha c my cute cousin soooooooo cute........den woke up like 7 plus den 8 plus went out to meet my platoon mates and we went to miss sharon hse...haha gave her a big surprise haha soooo fun...den wen to c her hse...veri nice...veri little furniture but overall the ambience is veri gd....juz nice for the 2 newly weds.....den their bedroom veri veri nice...so nice the cupboard and everytin....den ahha foud out tat her hse can c TTSH haaha soooo cool.....den yea later after the cake tin den we went back to smb for GB parade...actuali we didnt need to go back but dunno y miss constance sae need...den we went back and found out tat they didnt prepare anitin for us....haiz haah but nvm we stayed back for the rollerblading haha soo fun....veri nice to skate juz tat all the slopes and all these r driving me crazy haha...but afterall is fine..all the skatting tech still haven forgot...sooo nice....den yea went arnd skating and when we went back found out tat someone injured herself...so tgt wif miss joyann and me and angela we brought her to the clinic den the doc sae better go hospital for x ray...den angela went home cuz she got tuition...den we went to TTSH haah sooo funny juz saw it in the afternoon cant imagine myself going in in the evening..haha den it was like i waited all alone at the basement for the ger and miss joyan cuz onli can 1 pple go in wif her....den no choice i al alone waited for 2hrs plus alone!!!!! haha for them..veri sian over there..cant imagine myself waiting for soooo long alone somemore..haha but its okie cuz the ger is reali injured and i aso bu fan xing let her go home alone....so after tat bought her home and yea everytin was fine thx god...and thx god for providing me wif the strength to wait for her....and yea cuz i didnt had my lunch and dinner and i aldy damn tire le so thx god for sustaining me hahah..aniway todae was a quite torturing dae but since shes alrit i gues everytin is fine....
ytd i chat wif one ger ...shes the one hu made me sad for the past 3 yrs?? so surprising she tk to me in msn...ask me bout the time for o lvl chinese..and subsequently she cat wif me online..ask me y i so sad and all tat...juz found out tat maybe god wan us to remain this way ba..too close a relationship may not be tat gd..aniway i still cherish this 10 yrs of frenship me and her share and i cherish everytin
as daes goes by i began to feel better....wat i thought was..yea tats a gd plan god gave me..maybe i was too blur to decide everytin at tat point of time..but nw when im clearer i felt thankful tat god helped me solve everytin and yea all these r fated...it surely is...even if tins were the same as before..i believe this time round im clearer enuff to noe wat decision im suppose to make...
&i'ld stand by you}
{11:44 PM,â¥}
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
todae didnt have to go to sch...was soooooo happy....slp at 10 plus ytd and woke up at 10 plus todae....12 hrs of slp..tats wat i wan the most at this moment of time....was sooooo tire and irritated by tins in the world...juz wanna keep myself busy....and slp more...sooooo after all these i will be tire...and i ned not get so bothered wif those tins....trying to numb myself....yea i agree..i wana face it but i dun dare.....i dun wanna let myself enter a phrase and moment of sadness...so i rather to numb myself..when daes goes by...tins will turn better and im still hu i am....
woke up and went for breakfast....throat pain eyes pain and guess wat??? nose pain again..sooo xin ku..but i thx God during my o lvl chinese i onli nose pain....if not veri tong ku....after breakfast its bout 11 plus le...den chat on phone wif joleen...played the piano after tat...den after tat i took out guitar and played wif it....den my mum came in...and ask...wat's the price of a guitar...i was sooooo shock...den i sae cheapest should be $48 ba....den she sae...i dun wanna the cheapest de..i wan normal de...den i sae $100 plus aso got...den she sae okie...den i ask y u wanna buy for me ar....guess wat!!!! she sae yesh!!!!! haha i was sooo damn happy...she juz explain saying she last time dun let me learn cuz se scare im san fen zhong re du..but when she c how serious i m wif my piano and guitar..she was touched and decided to let me learn..haha my dreamn came thru...i can learn a string instrument le!!!!not gonna disappoint her...gonna learn it well..
didnt went to family centre toddae
&i'ld stand by you}
{4:53 PM,â¥}
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Wednesday, June 01, 2005
everytin was so boring...todae again my nose..bu zheng qi...so painful...kept sneezing....haiz...den yea went to sch again..haha thx god no sch tml!!!!! so happy...tats gd haha..can finali have a gd gd rest..duno will go family centre ma..will try to go...aniway have to c my nose la....if reali cant take it den wun be going ba..aniway i cant go there and sneeze every 5 mins ba....todae 1 dae of june..a veri new start...went to bowling wif my pals...veri fun....soooooo fun....haiz finali release stress le..but stil cant release certain tins ba....dunno....hmwk is the best tin to drown myself..yea tat's it!!!!
juz change a new blog music....sang by Yu Heng...nice name..the song is Yi Ran Shi Peng You...like this song damn lotz...dunno y...the song doesnt match everytin onli some does....and the whole melody was so amazingly nice and yea..juz gd lor.....fell alslp quite a number of times while listening to this song..so its obvious i reali luv this song lotz....
todae in sch...sarah played the piano...haah she juz reali....haiz a veri veri gd pianist she is..reali veri gd..haha envy her wor....aniway i believe she dun have all these by chance de..she reali worked hard in music and yea she deserve everytin she has nw....
okie yea tins were bad...damn freaking bad....God gave me tins tat reali stress me lotz..but i still thx him..cuz i noe tat,,,if he was there for me..surely i will fall..at least nw i stood strong in the strength of the lord...i thought tins were better...i hope of everytin to be gd..i c those tins i reali veri xin tong...but i cant do anitin cuz i noe myself....i noe tat certain tins juz doesnt go off..and i cant be tat selfish de...haiz....i reali reach my end le...dunno wat to do le.....
&i'ld stand by you}
{8:13 PM,â¥}
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