Saturday, January 29, 2005
got a new hp todae....maybe tats the gd tin God gave me after my suffering frm illness....somehow or another felt rather moody....although got new hp..but didnt get to go parade todae cuz my mum sae my teml still quite unstable..den even service tml she dun let me go...sae wat my throat is still veri bad..so better dun go...where got like tat de....reali cant stand it....sometimes i juz cant get a chance to decide for myself..i noe she did it for me....but...tats not wat i wan...veri sick and tire of everytin..wanna chat wif him actuali online...but when i actuali went to find him...he went away le...no matter wat the reason is....i noe sometin le....which is we'll nv be together...cuz he's still not "stable" enough...as in his mind is still all bout basketball....matches etc....heart fell apart...wanna pick it up....but how....got am test on mon..maybe a chem test aso but dunno which dae...so sian...sian frm everytin...eyes turn swollen ytd....fine this afternoon....gd tin...thx God...and no matter wat...wish him all the best.....
&i'ld stand by you}
{9:08 PM,â¥}
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