Thursday, March 31, 2005

everytin seems to be fine...right on sat...but it isnt...so wat if 2 person r together???they dun seemss to be like one....they juz lead their normal life and tat's it....was being "fool" arnd and dunno wat's happening...y was it given to me and nw i feel like it's shaking???trust is still the hardest tin to do....but i will continue to trust..cuz i'm still as stubborn as ever...not wanting to let out even if one dae sometin bad reali happen...tat's me....

todae was a great dae....went to service...combine...so quite blur bout everytin..but was veri happy cuz can c baptism going on...nv c be4 ma haha..den erm yea after tat went ice skating...wao it was damn fun haha....soooo happy can skate again.....fell down 3 times....first time dunno y i suddenly squat down den stand again haha..den sec time the ground tooo wet den i dunno y cant balance den landed on ground...den the third time is when right after i tighten my skates den too tight -_-" den fall haha...yea everytin was veri fun esp when we skate together....help those hu cant skate even though i cant skate well too haha...felt like flying when skating cuz the wnd and everytin haah..."white" ice and everytin was sooooo nice....reali look forward to the nxt fellowship...haha...den erm yea todae von they all noe le lor....haiz wat sher sae was right when u wrote sometin in ur blog...everybody noes it...but i didnt expect tat they will suddenly ask me...aniway trust their mouth haha...

everytin started..and i thx God for everytin...no matter wat happen....all he plan le..i juz thx him...a veri werid start but veri happpy.....

ytd was the full dress rehearsal for speech dae...den erm was there to check tins out...at first the gers were like...dunno wat they tinking bout...everytin aso anihow...den erm as the rehearsal gets tougher...yea they got the msg and start to put in effort..esp when they were asked to stayy back by angela and me...they at first still playing a fool...but erm yea after the brk they had...veri gd tin is..they suddenly march damn nice...haha nice arm swing but erm onli some dun have 90 la...but overall is veri gd...den erm decided to stop their training....aniway nice job gers!!!
got to knw sometins frm a person...instantly i was like...haiz...i was mentally prepared....knew it frm long..all i tell myself nw was...i trust every single word he sae...if he sae this den is this lor...tat's the most i could do...he wanted to call me last nite..but my mum was scolding me so cant chat wif him....so sian..when i finally can chat wif him...sometin crops up...haiz...but nvm at least he still noes i'm there haha...den erm yea his bdae coming...got the $$$ was preparing to go shop for it tml...
todae was like quite sian la stil the same..the haze reali got me...my eyes was painful and red at the same time due to the haze...but thx God felt better le..den todae got physic and chem class test..soo sian..noe how to do juz pray for the results ba...aniway believe tat it wun be tat bad..if it is...den no choice blame myself ba....

starting a new dae wif ooo sleepy eyes and giddy head again..so sian...went to sch todae veri tire...den the morning run i walk the whole joure..seems like everyone is walking so shld change the name to morning walk instead ^-*...den erm yea todae start the "run" behind of him...was feeling happy???haiz arnd got 5 daes we nv tok le....reali reali miz him...saw him in sch todae but i didnt smile at him..i juz turn my glance quickly away frm him..cuz i dunno how 2 face him...dunno wat kind of expression should i reveal...wanna noe how to reeal the lonliness i felt..but i dunno how...reali afraid tat he will sae...i tink we be frenz better....haiz....reali dun wanna hear tat word frm him....his bdae coming...wanna buy present for him...finali pluck up the courage to tell my mum i wanna take 50 out of my bank....others thought it was too much..juz wanna tell my frenz..i nv biase!!!!!reali.....no matter wat....my frenz willl stand in front of him....slightl in front..definately they will stand slightly in front...i'm not so wang en fu yi de.....den erm buying presents for him....spending quite lot this yr..haiz....how to give him lei????haiz have to trouble angela i guess...
todae hui ling bdae!!!! haha..happy 16th bdae to her ^-*...she recieve quite a lot of present hahah sooo gd....i aso veri gd la haha last yr bdae present not bad wor haah....den erm todae..found out tat our physic teacher will change!!!! so sian..its like when u adapt to a teacher..den out of a sudden they sae change means change....she may be a veri professional engineer graduate frm NUS..but tat doesnt mean she can teach....haiz so wat one lor...juz pray tat God will help us adapt to her....den tml got full dress rehearsal for speech dae..all the best to the p3 and 4...jia you !!! and of cuz to my lao po (shannon la haha ) tat she will jia you aso.....



{fElT lOnElY rIte FrM tHe BoTtOm Of My HeArT }

todae sch juz reopen...manage to finish all my hol hw ytd...so happy!!! thx god for tat..den study for chem test ytd..but todae found out tat test on chap 17 19 21 den i go study 20 instead of 21 wat the./...so angry....notebook sae 20 de ma....haiz..cant imagine wat kind of results juz leave it to god ba..i alrdy tried my best to study lotz le...den erm todae damn tire...soooo tire..my brain was like spinning like hell...den still have to go sch...
everytin was quite fine todae except for the tireness....den saw him in sch again...we havent been toking for 2 daes??? but to me was like how mani weeks....den haiz..his phone kana confiscate..den we cant sms....he was always out at nite..so we can onli tok when he reach home...when he reach home its like...1 am???haiz....i dun mind actuali..even if i onli can tok to him for 3 mins???i aso veri contented...haiz..reali wanna hear his voice lei...wanna call him but scare he not at home...or worst still scare he busy....dun wanna disturb him....den was like....my heart reali fell apart this few daes....i reali fear tat one dae...haiz...aniway tok thru le....no matter wat will hapen to the both of us...will we be tgt ant...or wateva..i will luv him till the every beat of my heart....and wun gonna regret it...



{jUz WaNnA lEt U nOe TaT i sWeAr i'Ll Be tHeRe FoR u & i WiLl LuV u TiLl tHe EvErY bEaT oF mY hEaRt.....}

hey hey...actuali wana post ytd de..but haha was chatting on phone wif my pri sch fren....tok until dunno time den go slp le...okie so ytd..was a veri fun dae for me...nice experience and time...
went to sch ytd morning for resilence trail training..be4 tat went to meet xiao hua and go sch tgt...den went to change my full u...after tat studied the book of exodus....yea veri fun and interesting...den they went to pitch the tent..haha i cant cuz of my full u : (...den erm yea after tat arnd 11 plus i rush to the mrt station cuz got colours rehearsal at 1230 at acjc...erm buona vista there ba..den haha here's the funny part..i took the train to jurong...actuali is correct de...den jurong there got 2 side..dunno which side to go..haha so anihow go one side :p...thought correct de...but die ar...discover tat i took the wrong train when i heard : this train will be terminating at boon lay...shit haha tat time i was veri veri scare..cuz first time take train alone to the other part of singapore so dunno wat to do...was chatting on phone wif joleen to ease my fear..thx god for her..den yea was tinking whether should i go take taxi at boon lay and directly go acjc or wat..was veri scare..den tink tink okie la dun care le bout to late le so juz take taxi at boon lay...den haha i dun even noe wheres the taxi stand..when i found it...shit no taxi!!!!den was panicking...bout to cry out le tat time cuz reali lor dunno wat to do...den saw a stationary taxi at the other end of the road..tat taxi reali attract me but i nv go care..felt ashame later cuz tat is god's prompting to me tat if i wan a taxi should go the other side...
so i decide to go the other side and true enough even be4 i reach the road...a taxi came and the driver c i so panick quicly stop the taxi even be4 i put my hand up!!!thx god for tat...and yea after tat reach there 10 mins late..thx god again cuz everytin started late and i met quite no. of frenz there haha so wasnt alone afterall....yea god's wif me thru out the whole event...thx god for everytin...all the tins he had helped me ytd...
den erm todae didnt go service cuz ytd my leg cramp until like nobody's business...so painfull...got 1 time cramp 3 times haha dunno wat i wanna sae la..aniway todae damn busy cuz gonna rush homework..nw the time is 710 and i still got 1 el compo and 1 mt compo haha gd luck for me ba....
den erm yea still missing him...ytd when i chat wif my pri sch fren..discover tat our situation same onli tat tat ger like 2 guys but i onli like 1 la haha..and tat 1 is like..dunno lor...i was still hang on top by him..onli can confirm tat i will always be on top...nw it depends on when he wana put me on level ground...or maybe worst...push me all the way to the botttom not even letting me stand....


{a nEw OnE cAnT sTaRt If ThE oLd OnE dIdNt FaDe AwAy..MiNe fAdE lE...wAt BoUt UrS????}

so sian...todae again went to sch 4 tat eng course...so sian again veri veri tire lor....den erm ytd chat wif him at arnd 1 plus in the morning haha...thought can tok longer but erm....haiz my mama eventually came into my room and stop my chatting wif him...haiz....den erm...yea....todae my fren told me sometin...i was like...so angry bout tat person lor...i mean..haiz y izzit tat in this world gus r always the ones hurting gers...y izit so unfair...gers cr so much and for guys...they slp the nxt dae okie le....y izzit tat gers r more emotional than guys....haiz reali veri frustrated by all these probs....but wat my fren sae was right....it takes two hands to clap...and both of them r the cause of the probs....but i juz felt unfair becuz its obvious tat the ger is feeling worst than the guy...haiz....juz pray for God's support on her ba....
got lotz of homework...haiz do until nearly cry out....begin to feel scare cuz of o lvls...chinese...wanna do well....may not get a1 but reali hope for at least a a2....will jia you de...
sec issue..is bout him ba....dunno y..as the o lvls come nearer....to me..my feeling was like..definately i still like him lotz....still wanna be wif him if possible....but somehow.. i felt tat....reali feel veri contented...the most important tin is not whether i can be his GF anot....but is the relationship we share....tat's more important than anitin else...and i believe tat he knws wat he's doing...
third issue haha..was like ytd when i was reading thru the bible....i was praying veri hard...cuz sat got awards ceremony..was afraid of lotz of tins...like erm afraid tat i do wrong tins den bring disgrace to 13 coy..haha so serious hor haah..den aso dunno how to go tat place....den aso dunno hu's the person i suppose to lok for..i noe the name but i dun even noe hu is she...aiyo so stress den somemore i go alone.. veri scare....but reali thank God tat..he reali spoke to me lor...the passage tat i read was surprisely on faith..and it sae bout the world is created by God so we should not fear becuz we muz believe tat God will lead us thru..and this faith is the greatest victory...was veri touch when i read this passage and instantly my fear diminished..thank God for tat...haha aniway uz pray tat God will lead me thru and grant me extra wisdom in doing tins ^-*

hey hey...todae erm wake up arnd 9 plus....den eat...use com...den after tat prepare a bit..den go sch for el course..wao soooo sian...maybe got learn a little tins ba...but for sure the most important tin i learn...haha is how to slp wif the eyes open haha jkjk....of cuz i cant slp wif my eyes open...haha den erm....yea the course was like...start late...end even late...den sooooo hungry..go buy old chang kee eat...den after tat went home prepare again..den go out to cause way...go celebrate wan lian si qian and patricia bdae....haha treat them swensen....together wif angela shannon hui jin and belinda....the 5 of us treat them...den haha was like....sso full when i eat...but still manage to eat until veri suang...den after tat we went shoping...was soooo boring...si qian bought a necklance for her bro...haha den erm yea...soooo sian...den went home wif lotz of tinking....wanna buy sometin for him on his bdae....but my frenz advise me tat...he maybe wun accept cuz the present too expensive....although i dun mind paying but nw the prob is they feel tat he wun accept the gift..reali troubled by this....dunno whether should i buy or not....or should i buy other tins for him .... haiz.....went arnd searching for adidas shoe bag...haha quite funny cuz stepping down soon i still wanna buy shoe bag....but yea...i will still go back and serve cuz tat's the onli place i can serve God....yea...felt veri funny this few daes....i was like angry wif God for the past 15 yrs of my life...blaming him tat y izzit tat he gave other pple gd qualities but i dun have...onli nw den i found out tat...He long ago had alrdy gave me sometin le...at the age of 3...i alrdy got tat gift le....but i put it aside..didnt take it seriously....reali hate myself ....i didnt do well in my past piano exams cuz i didnt take it seriously....nw i realise tat...the greatest gift He gave me was able to play the piano and enjoy the

{gOnNa PrOtEcT tHiS gIfT & uSe It WeLl}

hey hey...seems like i got millions of yrs nv post le....haha okie wat to sae lei....juz wana sae tat....nw my heart is like....all the decisions will come frm him...no matter wat...even if we are not together...the relationship we share nw...is alrdy veri gd le...i'm contented tat at least God protected this relationship me and him have nw....gd enough le....
yea den erm back frm camp ytd....the camp was...haiz haha...wat i can sae is tat i felt veri touch cuz can c how the p3 gers grow up....their way of leading and planing...yea they grow up le...but of cuz can still improve cuz they r capable of doing better de and i believe they can ^-*
den erm this camp was veri veri bad for me....firstly my spects broke into 2 on the sec dae...den no choice go fix the lens...den erm on sun...i got a veri terrile gastric pain in the morning...so pain tat i cried out cuz veri pain den i veri scare...haha thx God tat my frenz r there for me...and yea was fetch to the clinic den c te doc...den fine after tat...but veri sian onli can eat white porridge...den erm yea haha ....
veri blur todae haha cuz though got eng course todae...but discover tat...i made a mistake!!! haha so blur haha..yea went home after knwing how blur i am...luckily nv step in sch....tat's all i guess...can sae tat...these few daes quite nice....yea haha both me and him....the hp bill was like...so much...haha....okie la pos nv time....


{i ThAnK u 4 eVeRyTiN.....}

okie erm veri veri long nv blog le....cuz this few daes dunno how 2 sae..either is too busy....or too tire...or my parents nagging so dun feel like writing anitin...
these few daes was veri veri sweet for me....everyone was happy 4 me....and me...i was veri veri happy lor..den erm....todae he brk his promise..was veri veri disappointed...but didnt blame him..cuz he got reason...and erm yea....juz veri disappointed lor...
den erm..got back m common test result...haha like wat i expected...everytin was veri veri well....except tat em....nvm cuz is juz reali lor....i noe h0w 2 do de...juz make sure o lvl tat time no teacher will come and disturb..haha i believe wun de.....

todae quite okie....was doing the test....ss and bio no prob....when doing em...haiz...dunno wat happen to my brain....juz suddenly dunno how 2 do one qn...den quite lot of marks went down the drain..veri veri veri disappointed...but nvm....over le...nxt time wun let this kind of tin hapen de...den erm...yea went to watch a play todae...it was rather violent....bout terrorist...the meaning was like....y is there terrorism??wat made the pple become terrorist???izzit becuz they got veri bad past experience???so they were deeply emotionally hurt so they resort to these tins???or wat???hha was quite messy the story..but manage to figure out when elvis told me eevrytin...haha den discover tat..the whole story i onli manage to figure out the huang na tin myself haah rest was like told by elvis...haha he soooo clever....

everydae was so sweet for me....reali sweet....he and me....was like....juz tat..haha....den erm yea....reali felt veri gd....although sometimes i will tink of one tin...but juz wanna tell myself tat...if both of us stand firm....everytin will be fine ^-*.....he was veri worried for me...my results this and tat....yea so wei le ta...i will jia you de.....i will have back the results i'm suppose to get base on my standard....den erm yea....like tat lor....miz him lotz...but can onli sae tat...when u like someone....ur life and mind is totally him...everytin u sae or tink is whether he will this or tat..not wat i will feel...reali hope and pray tat...he wil have 100% faith on me...trust me tat...i will be able to have gd results..and all these wun let him down....
todae was quite a terrible dae for me...tml got SS Em and bio test...common test somemore...den erm yea was rushing thru bio..can onli sae tat i was too relax the pass few daes...always playing..so cant blame anione if i cant finish studying...den erm yea...SS was rather easy cuz is onli SBQ so yea will be okie...den erm Em haha...tat's the worst..not becuz my math not gd...but becuz...I FORGOT TO BRING MY TB HOME!!!!!! haah die le lor...but nvm believe myself ba i guess..pray for God's wisdom upon me and pray tat both me and all my frenz will be able to get thru this comon test safe and sound......

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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