Wednesday, November 30, 2005

back frm camp earlier...veri sad on tat dae..broke down...this is wat happens :
my dad stopped working cuz he cant handle the stress...no one is working in my family...my bro worked for his own use...tat's veri sensible of him...nv add stress to my parents...i wanna be like him..so i looked for job..at first..to me i thought i will nv get the motorola job i wan...but thx God..he gave me...but the tin is the first dae is 28 nov..which means to sae...i have to go back home frm yc earlier...at first i thought :aiya go ome onli ma i juz let jc noe can le(tat's the first dae of camp) hu noes...on the 3rd dae...i refuse to go home...ive tried my best during the past dae...try my best to be a gd testi..hoping my grp members could accept christ...nw i haven c anitin...n ive to go home??? i veri bu gan yan..on the 3rd dae my mum kept pressing on my...asking me to go home..i was stuck...so stuck...1st i wanna fulfil my purpose of goin yc...i wanna c the result..2nd my mum kept wanting me to go home...God sae cannot disobey parents...den how???both is for God..i was so stressed up..n finali i broke down..luckily i went out to take the call..cuz i broke down as im toking to my mum..i dunno wat to do...tat's the 1st time i cried for sooooo long...i juz cant stop...wat am i going to do??? how can i be a gd testi at home?? to others?? how??? when i cant even decide on this simple tin...eventually someone prompt me to pass the phone to j....so i gave him..he explained to my mum bout my purpose in yc..okie done so i stayed still 230 be4 j send me home...thx to him n sry for everytin...between tat thx to hua n angela..both held me on when i nearly crashed...leonard too...tok to me n haha first time tink hes quite gd aso ma...haha( tat's another tin side track le)..i thought everytin was fine..hu noes..when i got home..my mum still cant understand...she was a christian !!!! n she cant understand me!!!! cant understand my purpose of going yc..y like tat???den ok forget it...i juz leave it to God...
on this tin...i learned sometin..veri wonderful...this to me is like a veri precious lesson cuz this is the first time im caught in such a big situation..at least God reali noes my limit..he gave me frenz...if not for them..ive alrdy fallen apart..cuz this is like tearing me apart...
thx to all !!!!
i miz my "family"....didnt wanna leave them on the last dae de....sry guys..thx edwin for being a wonderful AGL...

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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