Saturday, December 31, 2005

QIU SONG IM SINGLE OKIE SINGLE..... aiyo kept on bugging me on my martial state or wateva u call tat haha..so irritating sia...sae le u still dun believe..dun go brainwash my bro okie....single means single full stop end case....haha...

gosh dunno wat's gona happen....aniway all i wanna sae in this short post is...im gonna do sometin crazy tml..dunno whether will do ma la...but got high percent will do....



[im not as strong as wat u guys tink i m...im juz a ger hu cant manage her life once her comfort zone is destroyed...]

ytd he msg me to thx me for the coco...we talked quite a lot?? haha as compared to the 2 msges ive recieved be4...this time is the sec longest le...dunno wat's my relationship wif him or rather the kind of relationship i hope to have wif him....tink tink..actuali fren aso not bad ma...he's a nice fren...i tink haha

hmm todae went to orcahrd..again!!!! haha ive been going to there for almost everydae...go there look for jobs?? haha todae went to pepper lunch for interview...den the person sae maybe tonite will call us again...i aso dunno wat to do bout the raffles de...anniway i will consider it seriously..cuz no matter wat it will reali affect lotz of tins..nw is the time..when ive to make big decisions which will affect my life later on??? hahameet wan lian todae to pas her the cocos..hope u guys enjoyed it...

todae was okie????haha went for job searching had a terrible time of looking for tat place..haah its soooo messy!!! haah den we dunno how la juz walk walk walk...den when we finali reach the place...our conclusion is..aiyo we walk one big round lei...haha den finali finish le...go ea t...hmmmn nice lunch!!!aha the food is reali veri nice..haha nxt time bring wan lian they all go eat... haha den erm...went back motorola to return every tin den on the way...discover reali got a lot of veri veri gd shops....like ebase...we saw a super big outlet..haha inside reali veri nice..den we saw quite a no. of adidas shop...den nike..haha so damn wonderful.....cant reali shop cuz need yo rush back....but in the end i was late...damn late n i missed everytin....reali missed it...saw auntie alice ...tok to her n gosh i reali luv her...she reali ve ri gd lor...thx auntie alice for everytin!!!ran up all the way to 4th floor..i noe wat's the result but i didnt give up...eventually i have to cuz....haiz aniway saw jamilah on the way...haha todae is reali the last dae..gonna miz everytin but!!! God is sometin tat im nv gonna miss him out again!

todae went out for job searching???? haiz seriously...haha dunno la..aniway todae i bought 2 nail polish xiao hua aso...den we go the stair case there n paint our nails haha so funny sia...kinda weird lor..den tml going to city hall to look for job again...den after tat going back to motorola..for the last time i guess...to return my smook wraist strap n get my final pay slip..kinda reali miz there lotz...tml will be my last time of stepping in..

ytd went out wif my buddies!!! haah so damn happy..bought a new half jacket i luv lotz...den recieved so mani touching christmas presents..haha it doesnt lies wif the $$$ but whether the person like tat present ma..so all i can sae is..all the presents i luv damn much!!! cuz mostly is hello kitty de...est r all those cute cute n nice nice de...still got 1 happy hse de!!! haha thx guys for the wondeful gifts...had delifrance for diner ytd..it was nice n delicious haha..n erm yup tat's all..aniway finali i recieved his msg for the fisrt time he took the first step in msging me..but it onli lasted for 2 msgs??? is he too tire??? guess so ba..hu ask him to work for continuous 1 week!!!

todae will be a veri gd dae for me..yup..going out at nite wif my frenz..merry christmas everyone..

overall wat im gonna sae is..thx God for everytin..wat's happening in my life i duno...i juz noe tat even though there were times ive neglected God..but as wat he has promised...he nv ever forsaken me....thx God for everytin!!!

dunno wat's happening to me..gosh i reali miz him...but no choice..i gonna go..if not bad tins will happen...i cant allow myself to fall into it...no no no....
last dae of work todae...didnt feel like going cuz bu she de...haha but ultimately i wanna give my time to God....so i still chose to leave...miz lotz of peeps...

gosh can u believe it...i told wan lian everytin!!!! haha die le la...aniway...

i guess tins had became worst...i noe tat u feel disappointed even though u did not directly show me...reali sry for everytin...u all noe me well enuff..i wun so easily fall off de..but when i did...it means everytin had alrdy reached my limits...i i dun have enuff strength to again n again restore my confidence....

ive talked to my supervisor ytd....he asked me to take resignation form....for detail lei haha i wun be posting down...too long le ba...aniway...ytd suddenly have a feeling i bu she de to leave..but eventually ive to go back to real world...this job reali dun suit me...reali...its not the scolding tat cause me to quit..o to work where got wun be scolded de...aso i nv get scolding ma...juz tat...i juz cant tahan the assembling of phones...its not suitable for me...i cant always be doing the model tat allows me to screw...there r other models where i cant screw animore..den tat time how??? continue to risk getting scolding??? or kept on taking yellow card?? which is quit immpossible cuz our supervisor "scolded" the QA...one reason for me to quit becuz i feel tat i dun have enuff time for God...im too troubled by "will i get scolding " tat ive forgotten "God is our refuge n strength..."sec is becuz the job dun suits me...third is tat i wanna try other job..so tat ultimately i have a taste of everytin...this few daes will take it as a brk n at the same time i will look for other jobs....meanwhile juz tat i cant spend so much....if not i will be broke..damn broke

had cell grp ytd n went shopping after service...sat got fancy drill training ncleaning of tents...gosh its disgusting...saw jocez von n melissa....miz the cheerleading lotz man!!!
during cell grp...i shared my probs..the job is no longer meaningful to me...i earn the $$$ but im not happy nor proud of myself...wat is this!!!the stress n everytin juz worn me out everydae....my parents were supportive...juz tat my father in the beginning was unwilling...but my mum juz sae : juz quit if u r too stress...its no point doing it animore...go find others where u can handle...so happy sia when i heard tat but i dunno wat should i do...was so lost...so during cell grp i shared...n i felt so guilty instantly...i asked God for the job...n he gave me...thx God for tat..eventually when i found out tat the job dun suit me..i wanna quit n i hope for others...so??? i take God as a santa claus???i was so sad when i heard wat miss june sae...cuz i felt tat ive neglected God during my work daes...i couldnt give Him wat He wanted...a simple request: loving relationship wif Him....but i cant fulfil tat...i even qn Him doubt Him....
i decided to quit tat job cuz mani factors showed tat it dont suit me....no matter wat im getting myself toher job..whether i will suceed anot i dunno...dun dare to ask God for wat le...juz wan a job whereby i can place God in the first place of my life...m i too much???
finali ive come to a decision....sry qian jin n lian...i noe im at fault..eventually i chose to go....pls forgive n understand my stand..its reali tough for me..u gers r doing great there...reali..but im not...my confidence r shaken everydae...it wasnt a gd feeling...so i chose to go..this place dun belongs to me...sry
i juz wanna earn sometin tat is sufficient for me....others i dun wan le....

juz changed my blog music....to SHE bu xiang zhang da...cuz i reali dun wanna grow up..dun wanna leave the nice comfort zone i once had..reali regretted wat ive sae in the past...i kept wanting to grow up..but nw...wo ba bu de yong yuan dao bu yao zhang da!

continue frm ytd.....i felt so ashamed when i qn God this way....He was so real in my life....i tried to persuade others to believe in him....but i cant even believe in him at times of trouble...wat's happening to me!!!!i asked myself to believe..have faith..but nth seems to be right...every morning i hate to wake up...cuz i noe i have to go to work..i cant give tat job up...wat jin they all sae r rite..the pay is gd..n tat's wat i need the most nw..so i cant give it up...the stress m fear in me rises everydae...i wanna slp foreva so i need not work need not do this tink tat bla bla bla...i did not grow spiritually...felt so lost...have to give up sat OT time...which is actuali a veri hard tin to decide..i can earn quite lotz during sat n sun..of cuz sun i wun work..definately i wun...sat was a gd time...i can work all sat till sch reopen..cuz got GB stuff n so on...but i gave it up for recruitment...my heart aches...of cuz...but suddenly i heard sometin : be contented wif wateva is given to u..cuz God noes how much u need....n he will provide u..cuz he's our provider...instantly i was like : hey y will i tink tat way??? y will i be sad cuz of lesser $$???life for me was bad..real bad...fear lotz of tins...this is not me....i even go to the extend of tinking of quiting the job...but my frenz persuaded me n i guess..i wun give it up...nope!i guess i need to use sat n sun..to refomat my brain....my goals..my life ...my walk wif God...n other tins...juz cant continue like tat....its too bad le...

yc photos make me look so er xin !!!! haha mr jonathan can u take some pics tat look nicer for me??? haha the yc pics r....aiyo c le aso paiseh


hmmm todae can onli sae...i broke down terribly twice..c angela..this shows how tough motorola is...its terrible reali...kana yellow card...4 peeps!!!! its 4!!!! i was so stressed up...actuali wanna go toliet de but instead cried in there...the first qn in my mind is...God...y have u left me alone???? y do i feel so weak??

back frm shopping todae wif my parents...bought lotz of tins....bag,shirt,skirt,rubber band
veri happy ba..actuali wanna buy adidas bag..but found a roxy one....its nicer to me la...den like it a lot...aso adidas bag..i feel tat..to me la..cuz i veri short le ma...so bring tat bag..seems to be too big for me???den roxy one i tink its smaller...obviously it is..haha den erm bilabong one i aso like..but i find the design bu nai kan..veri fast i wun like it le...so i rather buy roxy de...simple n nice...n suits me???
shirt n skirt is mickey mouse de...actuali wanna buy the "paint" skirt me n wan lian like a lot de...basically me n her like both the mickey mouse n the "paint" skirt la...but c c...my mum sae dun wan..guess its the length again..veri disappointed..cuz she dun let me wear tooo short skirt..but to me..it isnt too short...but nvm..brought her to c the mickey mouse skirt...whereby i tink me qian jin n wan lian..all of us like ba..den she sae okie this one veri nice...guess wat..dun have my size..too big..luckily can alter de..so nvm n bought the skirt..after tat...bought a shirt again..like tat one ...wannaa but the half jacket..but not so soon???i aso dunno...den erm yea...didnt help jin buy the adidas bag cuz dun dare...fear tat later tat isnt te bag she wan...same colour but hu noes if the shop got new one den not the one she like...but still hope tat she can reconsider cuz i got a feeling there might be nicer one...or nicer combination of red n other colour cuz the one i saw is red n white...singapore flag ^-*
went home super tire..tml same tin working at 630...den after tat piano lesson..tat's it...veri scare tat jin will be unhappy cuz i nv help her buy..:...(
discover tat there is mani trials in front of me...i gonna sacrifice lotz of tins for God..i dun mind cuz i noe if the job is reali God's will...he will hold onto the job for me....but if not nvm..cuz he will provide me wif better ones...aso thank him for giving my parents wisdom..they r contrpling my $$$..i dun mind cuz i scare i will spend too much..which is definately will ...but wif them..i wun...
THANKX GOD!!!!

todae wah...reali exciting sia..hahathe bus didnt come..n we have to reach by 6.30 cuz my shift is 6.30 to 3..so i was sort kana shock n dunno wat to do..den some aunties sae take taxi den claim frm coy..den i dunno wat to do cuz i dunno how to contact wan lian..but sometin prompted me..its the holy spirit...to call wan lian...cuz we normally wun bring our hp to work..so i doubted..but this prompting..for the first time covered my own thoughts..so without ani hesitation..i called her on her hp..n guess wat!!!! wan lian brought her phone along to work so we manage to contact each other...meet at mrt station n go tgt...its veri scary cuz we took the train at 6..reach yio chu kang at 610...n we cant get a taxi..again He prompted me again....go to the opp side...n of cuz i got a taxi at 620 haha gonna be late??? definately no!!!! haha me n wan lian are blessed..we r not late...jin n qian got a shock out of their life....cuz me n lian nv so late be4...haha we aso veri scare de..but i noe..defiantely we will nv be late...
hmmm...after daes..or i should sae 2 weeks of working...my heart dun pump tat hard le..quite relax le..but the workload is still the same...the amount of phones we do...highest record of mine..1500 phones!!!! but some aunties do more den us haha...but still dun quite like the job lor..haha $$$ is so powerful!!!! my fingers were cut...slight cut onli la haaha cuz the parts were veri sharp..but thx God..ive endured everytin....mani ppl wanna resign haha ...seriously its normal for ppl to tink tat way..cuz it is reali veri tough...mentally n physically...but to me is more of mentally n spiritually...pray tat i can grow stronger....
ive agreed to everytin..i dunno wat i do correct ma..or can i reali do my best in it..but im sure...tat God wil lead me thru...no matter wat i shouldnt doubt him..my job n everytin..will be settle de..so similarly angela....dun worry k...God is there...we should feel protected n not disappointed
they seems to enjoy cheerleading...haiz...reali miz it lotz...but...there r juz some tins i have to give up...sry von i didnt keep to my prommise..the promise of going back for cheerleading..
todae was veri special..i went shopping...alone!!!! haha first time..dunno y i can tahan..but suddenly feel tat..its rather relaxing..going out wif frenz is gd..alone aso gd..

if u wanna ask me wat;s the most fearing tin haha den i guess i will onli sae..working in motorola ba..haha todae some of us kana shifted to 3rd floor..actuali is under li mei de den nw under tat xiao ling..sian man..she actuali not bad de la..juz tat she reali veri damn freaking fierce man...cant stop shouting lor..den work at 3rd floor reali can go crazy ani time..how i wish to go back 1st floor..even if wanna do a lot i aso dun mind...at least i can be sure at 1st floor i wun die of heart attack so early...todae veri wat...had gastric pain in the morning..it wasnt tat painful actuali..not as pain as tat time camp de..but its veri disturbing n seriously...i nearly vomitted..haha veri xin ku lor..nobody likes gastric pain..trust me...but thank God...he cured me within few mins...i had a slp on the sofa for onli 15 mins!!!!! n im fine!!!! thank God..if not i reali dun dare to tink wat will happen..
ytd was the onli time i can sae his tins so firmly..the decision i make upon him..so firm n steady...guess ive alrdy make up my mind ba...blame me all u wan...at least i can sae..u r the one hu gave me up in the first place..

this few daes was soooo tiring...cuz work morning shift...but todae..the back housing was missing..so which means to sae we have NTH to do..so sian lor..den todae finali our supervisor alvin tan....he finali came back frm hols haha...so c him first time..he held a meeting n bla bla bla..tat's it..den todae had a slp in the afternoon...woke up by all the noise..had dinner..n here i m writing a post..haha
i reali miz cheerleading a lot..dun wanna give up at fisrt..but no choice...dun wanna affect the whole performance..its a fact tat i wun be able to make it for the training..reali miz the daes when all the gers share their pain tire n frustaration tgt..its indeed memorable..i will cherish wat took place last yr n the previous yr...the whole process n the performance itself...i still miz everytin n pray for the best of all the gers..JIA YOU ZEPHERS!!!!

will be working morning shift this 2 weeks..terrible timing but have no fear..cuz im enci..haha wang shi ok la....^-*


thx frenz for the hello kitty necklance..haha dunno hu give de onli noe one of them is jin..haha aniway reali thx..cuz i reali like it lotz...



sometimes i reali duuno wat im tinking..my actions betray my heart....

hmmm wat to sae lei..one week of work..its terrible..it can be veri free when the goods r not here..but when they r..its bad!!!veri....wat to sae lei..its veri stressful..cannot do wrong..one aso cannot..if those aunties c stil okie..they will cover up..but if kana caught by QA....dead le...reali veri xin ku..but okie la..the experience reali gd...n this make me feel tat..no matter wat im not gona do factory again...haha its veri scary..i tried my best..but mistakes r bound to happen...but okie la at least i noe..ultimately tthe one i should fear is God..not others..i lost my magnet todae..n the screwing was damn slow...nobody could help cuz there is onli one machine..all they could do is help me fix...so scary..so mani phones to screw...we were the last grp todae..sian ar..everybody cant go home..cuz of us..my lost magnet n the unscrewed phones..but finali we found it n finsih it..so okie la...aniway juz feel veri sry lor...
xiao ling ar xiao ling...dun so fierce...wrinkles all crawl out le wor :p



dunno wat my mind is tinking..haha so wat sia...he called me on my bdae..but simialry i did not ans..cuz hp not wif me

hua angela n me...haha dirty legs due to games...haven bath wor

chua family..u rox!!!!miz u guys

u told me u will be going...but u didnt appear on tat dae...dun understand y..i juz wanna ask..y izzit tat everytime u will always have a reason to cover up ur mistake????im sick n tire of ur reasons le...trusting in u reali wears me out...juz go live ur life ba...the biggest mistake ive made is to believe in u...



its been a long time ...veri long le...i nv reply ur msg...so how???

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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