Monday, December 19, 2005

had cell grp ytd n went shopping after service...sat got fancy drill training ncleaning of tents...gosh its disgusting...saw jocez von n melissa....miz the cheerleading lotz man!!!
during cell grp...i shared my probs..the job is no longer meaningful to me...i earn the $$$ but im not happy nor proud of myself...wat is this!!!the stress n everytin juz worn me out everydae....my parents were supportive...juz tat my father in the beginning was unwilling...but my mum juz sae : juz quit if u r too stress...its no point doing it animore...go find others where u can handle...so happy sia when i heard tat but i dunno wat should i do...was so lost...so during cell grp i shared...n i felt so guilty instantly...i asked God for the job...n he gave me...thx God for tat..eventually when i found out tat the job dun suit me..i wanna quit n i hope for others...so??? i take God as a santa claus???i was so sad when i heard wat miss june sae...cuz i felt tat ive neglected God during my work daes...i couldnt give Him wat He wanted...a simple request: loving relationship wif Him....but i cant fulfil tat...i even qn Him doubt Him....
i decided to quit tat job cuz mani factors showed tat it dont suit me....no matter wat im getting myself toher job..whether i will suceed anot i dunno...dun dare to ask God for wat le...juz wan a job whereby i can place God in the first place of my life...m i too much???
finali ive come to a decision....sry qian jin n lian...i noe im at fault..eventually i chose to go....pls forgive n understand my stand..its reali tough for me..u gers r doing great there...reali..but im not...my confidence r shaken everydae...it wasnt a gd feeling...so i chose to go..this place dun belongs to me...sry
i juz wanna earn sometin tat is sufficient for me....others i dun wan le....

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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