Sunday, January 01, 2006

todae was a terrible dae...i hate to put up a strong front when im not tat strong actuali...it wasnt anione's fault...its juz tat im too used to have tins so smoothly given to me so i cant reali accept it when i left all alone or wateva..i wasnt feeling gd...or should i sae once i started working...im not feeling gd at all..i can feel....tat every smile n luff i gave...it wasnt frm my heart...unintentionaly...i cried again todae...once in the toilet..den the other is in my room....juz cant control...i wanted to do tins well..but when i panick nth is in my brain..i dunno wat to do..den tat's it....i do wrong tins le...feel so scare....but i will always rmb God is my rock,fortress,deliver n shield...so i will be fine..but i juz need time to sort tins out...
finalli one by one ive picked up tins tat ive lost once...
Lord im lost once....i gave u up becuz of my job..im utterly ashame of myself...but nw i will nv give u up again...cuz $$$ cant buy a close relationship wif u....my work had caused me to lose the 9 fruits of the spirit...im no longer hu i m...im no onger the confident ger hu can do tins confidently n firmly....im no longer the ger hu can trust in God so much tat i can go all the way to acjc on my own when im a idoilt when it comes to direction....im aso no longer the ger hu smile n luff so freely cuz she noes God will protect her frm everytin...im aso no longer the ger hu is responsible in her commitment.....but i will be the ger once again...juz need time...time to bring all the tins ive lost back into place...
the gd news is...im half way thru....n another half will result in me becoming back the ger i once was....

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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