Tuesday, February 21, 2006

hmm veri long nv post le ba,...this few daes okie la..juz tat daes juz go on the same way...made a choice to poly n hmm wateva happpens leave it to God...aniway we r happy tgt...yup...veri happy...todae veri sad..actuali going east coast...but yee kiat was called back suddenly...veri super angry...cuz its like finali can go n wat the!!!! reali veri upset lor..haiz..

hmm ytd was valentine dae..haha everytin was normal??? we didnt went out cuz we working...but the previous dae we went out...he went to look for me at pepper lunch n we went out...veri nice n fun dae...felt so protected n everytin...went to hereen n paragon...haha i was like having fun n he's like pei wor...haha he nth to c..cuz shoppping is like tat de ma..no choice :p...den its like real fun n we went to watch movie...my kungfu sweetheart..thumbs up man!!! its a veri nice show..haha...den went home lor...veri super tire..those few daes im like working closing on sun..den mon opening at 9!!!! so its like mon i was like a dead person...n eventually i allowed him to carry my bag after the show haha cuz i reali veri veri tire..can u imagine!!! haha but reali felt veri happy...its enuff le boi..reali...pa's concern for me is cuz im his girl..so he concern...but for u..even a gd nite msg is veri super enuff for me le..i dun need much..i dun need u to spend $$$ on me..no need...juz a care n concern is gd enuff le ^-*....


den tue work 12....pa was like veri unhappy bout me having to workin closing n opening....no choice ma....den ytd i cleaned the fridge...veri busy ytd...cashier closing was yi ta hu tu...but me n jess manage everytin...helped each other n had a fun time though tire...hopefully todae the big boss will be happy wif our nice results ^-*


later going out wif him ! haha hopefully we'll enjoy...

pa was veri angry wif me ytd for eating instant noodles...i promised him be4 tat i wun take instant noodles again..but ytd i was too hungry n i ate...he was angry but he care lotz for me..he msg me to remind me to cover blanket...but he aso msg me to sae bout the noodle stuff...haiz...felt sry for brking the promise....
i guess sometimes i juz have to accept how life is gonna change...as we grow up we r bound to meet new peeps n frenz..not onli tat...we aso have to go new place n learn new tins...no one can stay foreva tgt...but i juz hate the feeling of needing to part...it hurtz lotz...reali...i wanna stay foreva tgt...y cant??
ytd i work till closing...thx tat hua was there to help me wif it...finished it early i can sae..den everytin was fine....he meet me at the mrt n we went home tgt...i was damn shag ytd..reali shag...

getting results todae...

so fan this few daes..me n him..veri gd..he treat me veri well...better den last time de lor...den erm my mum was okie wif it.. so can guang ming zhen da lor..tml taking results veri jin zhang ba...den erm he bought me a hello kitty bracelet n ring..like it lotz..but heartache his $$ for him...this few daes pepper lunch was crazy...the schedule n everytin...so stupid...anger a lot of peeps...reali lor...den haiz dunno la..todae gonna be hard time for us...wasnt feeling gd lately...hua was down...me too was down wif lotz of tins...den reali dunno how lor...i hate the feeling of growing up...y muz we grow up??? move on?? n lose frenz tat we cherish lotz???pepper lunch was once a place which i ahte lotz..no meaning i thought...but frenz r the tins tat held me back..frenz ...the feeling of working tgt serving tgt tire tgt luff tgt n craze tgt ...but nw...tins r moving on..the feeling is gonna lose soon...i didnt wanna go cuz i miss my pa...lotz of tins im gonna miss..but can anione tell me..without the frenz...wat is the meanin of staying there ???its juz an empty nut...without anitin...first is zhen yu ...den hu's nxt??? i cant control anitin but i reali sad n hurt by those decsion of theirs...den nxt is life after os...taking result going poly..new life new place..im lost again...new frenz bla bla bla..i once thought tat if i go poly i wil be happy cuz i can start everytin again..but nw i dun wan.i wanna remain...but i can control i ahve to grow up....but im scare..fear lotz of tins...wat m i going to do??when can i change this thought of mine?? when can i reali grow up n not fear animore??when can i be independent!!!!

i finali got it!!!! the dae when i went pepper lunch n pa cooked an egg for me..tat's becuz tat dae is his bdae..he once told me he hope to cook sometin on his bdae for us to eat...n he did...but i onli got to noe his bdae frm jess this few daes...finali ba..but didnt get to buy him anitin....he was veri sad n worried by my illness..sry pa..i will take gd care of myself de...pa didnt like him at all..i noe...i aso dunno wat to do..even if i insisted on my ways..he will not object..but he will be veri sad n woried tat i will get hurt...can i trust u?? trust tat u will not let me get hurt??? so tat pa will not get worried bout me??n tat i can tell him confidently tat u can bring happiness to me...can???


i trust him too much le..juz becuz i choose to give him freedom n trust...eventually tins turned out bad..im too innoncent to believe tat he still luvs me on the dae he walked away frm me...sry i cant reali trust u...its not ur fault...but i juz hate myself....dun wanna make the wrong choice again...u understand ma???

change my music again..to vivian hsu ai xiao de yan jing..gosh luv this song lotz haha

gosh i felt so bad...ytd i had a terrible time..shop half way discover tat...im sick!!!! but i still went to work dunno y...den work half way i reali thought im dying..my throat is super damn pain...my gastric was not gd..my fever was running high..giddy plus headache..everone was veri concern bout me.....yi yi even sae : enci jia you...haha...so touched sia..n waki was like holding my hands n ask if im okie..juz tat ys...like i nobody like tat....but sort of didnt blame him cuz i noe he got ku zhong..tins r dunno going which directtion...aniway ytd reali felt veri terrible..den closing tat time i reali cannot le..but i manage to finish everytin..juz tat i didnt manage to clean the floor...have to shout for help..den i went down to rest..wao reali cannot le..everytin pain...den i sat there pull my hat lower n eventually i cried...cant tahan le..den jess was comforting me..hua was helping me wif the floor...n ys eventualy came to console me...gave me hot water n honey water cuz my throat reali cannot..den after change le..i sat wif waki..he was like caring for me..making me smile n everytin..den okie le went home tat time kana nag by mum...i noe she cares for me..but i so big le..wat for...haiz...den todae went to c doc...okie le but cant go work n parade...wasnt allow to..den called daniel up...felt veri sry..but he sae its okie n ask me to rest more...haiz...hua todae have to do everytin alone..felt even bad bout tat....adam pa was veri concern bout me n ask me to take care dun make him worry n heart ache...sry bout tat too pa

veri veri long nv update le ba....cuz i went to malaysia last fri..or sat?? haha i dunno n came back on tue...its veri tiring but i veri happy..my daes in malaysia is a torture...i miss everytin a lot...reali lotz..my frenz in pepper lunch...six ties...adam pa...n of cuz tat egg...every dae in malaysia is juz : SIAN..nth to do..when i came back.i was so damn happy...all i wan..is to go out n c my frenz..even though im working late..even though im super tire...but its okie....i juz wana c them...juz a glance...eventually i went to work ..my time was 6 to eleven...tiring but reali....its fun n i tire until veri happy ^-*but the worst tin is..i forgot to xiag wor de adam pa bai nian !!!
as daes go by...adam pa dote on me more n more..he revealed more of him to me....he reali showered his luv n care towards me...n to me..he's reali like my father..care for me...buy tins for me to eat....he will always sae : girl eat le ma???.....n most of the time there will be tins for me to eat...he will buy for me...during new yr..he even gave me ang bao..n the amount is...no one can imagine de...the gesture of him giving me reali touch me lotz..n i even forgot to bai nian to him!!!!he was veri disappointed but all he sae was he wans me to grow up well etc..n in short he juz hope tat i will grow up to be a refine lady of gd character...isnt it sweet???he's veri protective towards me..when he noe i cant slp well...he kept consoling me...making me so touch tat i felt like if i still dun slp well...im not letting myself down but im letting him down...when daniel sort of "sae me" ..adam pa immediately approached me n teach me short cut to make my life easier...he comfort me n juz show me tat he dun like it when anione scold me...when waki played a trick on me by jia jia scold me..he aso not happy ...he's reali veri sweet...



as daes goes by i dunno wat im tinking..gosh everyone sae u r a nice guy....but y..i seem to c his shadow in u...u promise me u wun be like him...but....pls dun make me do sometin stupid...dae by dae u r juz makin me lose my trust..n eventually everytin will return empty




egg ar egg...i dunno wat to sae le....u juz do wat u wan ba...inkless pen...pen is our symbol..how can u sae its inkless...

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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