Wednesday, May 31, 2006

a lot of tins reali happen this week...im juz blur by wateva happens this few daes...has a real serious quarrel wif him...angela was rite..its when u gonna lose him den u noe how to reali cherish him..but seriousl i noe how i feel bout him..i noe how much he meant to me...


went to orchard wif jing han..had a great time..

boi im sry im reali sry..pa was rite...i didnt tink bout how u feel when i sae tat...i dun mean it i reali dun..i wun find reasons to cover wat ive done..cuz i noe this time im reali wrong...i noe how much u mean to me n how much i luv u....

hmmm todae reali veri funny....i waited for him veri long..tat's not the point...de after tat u noe wat...the duration was so long tat it is more den 2 hrs n eventually my card cant go out...concession has got a rule whereb u cant exceed 2 hrs...tat's y..haha den erm yup finished kinda 3 test le...veri upset wif bio physic n biochem...reali veri super upset...biophysic i nth to sae...biochem was reali a heartahce....haiz...muz reali learn how to be the old me...the one hu reali studies hard n play hard...jia you ba....

veri long nv post le ba...still the same he dun have time to pei wor..but nvm ba i noe he nw adaes veri tight...but boi muz cntrol wor i reali dun wan u to torture urself like tat .... todae had my bio physic test..gosh its reali veri hard...it has more unknowns den equations..so how r we going to solve??? gosh reali lor..veri sad...told him bout it..he asl me dun sad..den he skipped his tok...n pei wo go shopping..even though later he working..but i reali veri happy le..u noe..so long he nv pei wor..nw finali can.i reali super happy le worr...c how happy we r...boi i promise u i wun let u go unless u chose to give me up first...

okie so its been such a long time ever since ive posted anitin....is it veri long?? haha aiya i dunno la....aniway....on mon i wen to piano....but of cuz sch be4 tat... after sch i went to meet him..n we went home tgt..tat dae morning he wannated to send me to the mrt station haha but he overslept i guess..he sounded preety upset wif himmself...but its okie boi...haha...nxt time ya?? den erm after sch i went to piano..he went wif me...sen me over n he went for a hair cut...too short wor haa i like his long coloured hair....butnvm he will go dye back but not so soon...den after my piano he juz nice finish his hair cut..den we went to have dinner at swensen...finali i began to feel tat..he always goes along wif my idea..i sae dun wan wat den he will be okie...so whenever we go out for meals..he will always ask wat i wan..if we eat ex tins he aso wun mind....reali veri touched by tat....but i dun reali wanna eat ex tins..we cant always afford tat bu shi ma...den after meal he sen me home...n tat it....the nxt dae which is tue we went to sch...not tgt..den erm..ya he went to work after sch..i went wif him to orchard...wat broke my heart was..ya so wat if i have test the nxt dae...i juz wanna pei him ar...but he kinda juz sae sometins tat reali hurt me lotz...den okie nvm...i wanna go buy shoe..so he went wif me...when i was bout to pay..he held onto my bag refusing to passs to me...n he paid for my shoes..he sae he wanna pu chang the daes he nv pei wo....i was touched but i suddenyl thought of sometin : he bought me sometin to compensate...den isnt he like my parents?? boi i dun wan ur $$$ i juz wan 10% of ur time hao ma???as daes goes by my heart reali aches lotz...yup partly is becuz he cant pei wor..but most of it is becuz he's working too much n he reali veri tire....so i told him : u no time for me nvm but pls give urself time to rest....i rather u use ur time to have sufficent rest den kept working for dunno how mani daes in a week as if u no need to go to sch the nxt dae...tat's all i hope from him...den wed i had my test..went to watch poseidon wif jing han after tat...wao super nice show..will comment on it later haha...den thurs erm we went to sch tgt...i wore the shoe for the first time on tat dae..he asked me y... so i sae : u wasnt there on wed i wear tat shoe for hu c lei??? den he was kinda touched...on fri which is todae..i didnt go CD lesson so damn sian...den we went home tgt...he was veri tire....he worked for like tue to sun???? gosh how could anione take it....todae was a veri rush dae..i went home settle my physic project so damn freaking tire cuz reali veri funny the ppt...den settle le rush to angela hse to do parade stuff...n ta da!!!! im home again...gonna study late..muz study!!!!! left wif bio physic bio chem n ap test...jia you wor !!!!

okie so its been such a long time ever since ive posted anitin....is it veri long?? haha aiya i dunno la....aniway....on mon i wen to piano....but of cuz sch be4 tat... after sch i went to meet him..n we went home tgt..tat dae morning he wannated to send me to the mrt station haha but he overslept i guess..he sounded preety upset wif himmself...but its okie boi...haha...nxt time ya?? den erm after sch i went to piano..he went wif me...sen me over n he went for a hair cut...too short wor haa i like his long coloured hair....butnvm he will go dye back but not so soon...den after my piano he juz nice finish his hair cut..den we went to have dinner at swensen...finali i began to feel tat..he always goes along wif my idea..i sae dun wan wat den he will be okie...so whenever we go out for meals..he will always ask wat i wan..if we eat ex tins he aso wun mind....reali veri touched by tat....but i dun reali wanna eat ex tins..we cant always afford tat bu shi ma...den after meal he sen me home...n tat it....the nxt dae which is tue we went to sch...not tgt..den erm..ya he went to work after sch..i went wif him to orchard...wat broke my heart was..ya so wat if i have test the nxt dae...i juz wanna pei him ar...but he kinda juz sae sometins tat reali hurt me lotz...den okie nvm...i wanna go buy shoe..so he went wif me...when i was bout to pay..he held onto my bag refusing to passs to me...n he paid for my shoes..he sae he wanna pu chang the daes he nv pei wo....i was touched but i suddenyl thought of sometin : he bought me sometin to compensate...den isnt he like my parents?? boi i dun wan ur $$$ i juz wan 10% of ur time hao ma???as daes goes by my heart reali aches lotz...yup partly is becuz he cant pei wor..but most of it is becuz he's working too much n he reali veri tire....so i told him : u no time for me nvm but pls give urself time to rest....i rather u use ur time to have sufficent rest den kept working for dunno how mani daes in a week as if u no need to go to sch the nxt dae...tat's all i hope from him...den wed i had my test..went to watch poseidon wif jing han after tat...wao super nice show..will comment on it later haha...den thurs erm we went to sch tgt...i wore the shoe for the first time on tat dae..he asked me y... so i sae : u wasnt there on wed i wear tat shoe for hu c lei??? den he was kinda touched...on fri which is todae..i didnt go CD lesson so damn sian...den we went home tgt...he was veri tire....he worked for like tue to sun???? gosh how could anione take it....todae was a veri rush dae..i went home settle my physic project so damn freaking tire cuz reali veri funny the ppt...den settle le rush to angela hse to do parade stuff...n ta da!!!! im home again...gonna study late..muz study!!!!! left wif bio physic bio chem n ap test...jia you wor !!!!

okie todae had our officers retreat...yup everytin fine...


emptiness juz filled me....once again....boi i cant manage to stand up again if the same prob happens btw me n u....juz like wat happens to me n him....pals..am i being unreasonable???can anione tell me???



once again i c tears filling my eyes....

tried to put a song in but failed eventually...a pile of unknown words appeared instead...
aniway my life this feel daes reali sux....duno wat's happening to me...ya they were right..there's sometin wrong wif my life..ive noticed it long ago too..but till nw i still cant accept this truth..come on...reali i cant...my life will be better...once i sort everytin out...my studies my family my relationship wif everybody...so pls dun make me make ani decision ani more...gona have kinda lotz of test nxt week on?? jia you my frenz!!!!

boi...i dunno wat to do..can u teach me??? all i wan is u to be there for me..but its like..u r busy..veri busy..i nv wanna blame u..sry if my tone seems wrong...i juz wanna let u noe how much i miss u during those daes u r unable to be there for me...i got angry in the beginning cuz when i reali wan to make a decision ....u make me feel tat afterall u r not tat worthy at all...i dun wanna make a wrong move..i reali dun wan...i got bad experience i reali got..tat's y i fear a lot...wat if i gave everytin up n in the end everytin did not turn out as gd as i wan???den when u noe it u promised me u will learn..okie den im fine..im willing to help....sec time i got angry...cuz u reali dun have time for me...n im aso worried for u...ur health..how r u ging to cope..pepper lunch n ur father's side...u r not metal boi...u need rest...but u didnt...u kept on working..even my mum could c ur tireness....maybe u might not have noticed..the last time u accompany me out was last mon...come on...last mon boi....i admit i shouldnt fuss up but i juz...i juz wan accompany...the tin is i cant blame u cuz its not ur fault..den can i ask....y izit tat u n him the same?? tins happened n i cant blame at all...not at all...okie den forget it..todae i hate to let u go....cuz i finli can c u...i wanna go all the way to orchard is not becuz i wanna pass my tins to pa personally but becuz i wanna spend time wif u...short short de aso can...i got angry again is cuz i reali dun wanna c u go to work.....i wann u to be there....

他说他很爱她 他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花 一切美得不像话
從朋友变成情人 她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得徹底 真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人 开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人 太蛮橫
她开始悬著疑问 不想瑞等他承認
不再要任何伤痕
谁爱谁 谁又流干了眼泪
谁后悔 难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁 谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎 谁又该干脆离开
谁爱谁 谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔 谁在忍受著孤独
谁了解 他退出 她孤独(谁退出 谁孤独)
爱得太盲目(谁不满足)

im hurt..seriously hurt....cant u c my tears????

im stress boi..im veri tire le...wat can i do???when wil u exactly show me tat u r worthy of everytin??? i need u to be there but u wasnt..i need ur encouragement or even assurance some times but u nv once gave me....wat am i suppose to do???


when u show me how unworthy u r...den i will juz sae bye to u

eNcI

Mood:for ever happy go lucky

looks at the world positively, so her face always seem so happy.

will not get up set easily( if she does than its no small prob )

dun ask her to sit down quietly cuz its like killing her

will not follow fashion, but standing in between simplicity and too modern.

a very open person, sometimes can be too blunt.

often sae sometin which lets u tink whether u should hate of luv her

a free spirit and does not like to stay home.

likes to be protected, but not to give her orders.

will listen if she respect you.

likes to be herself and like her guy to be himself.

a no nonsense woman because she always say what she is thinking out loud like a guy.

sees problems in her love life as another funny story.

screw tins up rather easily but nv allows tins to continue to fail clumsy and it is in her nature.

very friendly, so she can easily turn her enemy to be her friends.

could spent lots of money as if she can not understand how difficult it is to make money.

a paranoid.

loves sports.

likes going straight and being straight forward.

will not go around to get what she wants, or beat around the bush just to say something









.God,fReNz,hIm

.hElLo kItTy,h@pPy h$3,t@t+y b3@r

.family(will it be the same??)

.music,piano,guitar,violin,drum,cello

.cheerleading(it rox 4eva),my hp,happiness,shopping

.lotz n lotz of real nice clothes (top n bottom), shoes tat loks special to me bla bla bla

.chocolates , and aso not to forget my meiji coco milk which i cant start my dae well without tat ^-*

DREAMS

. wishlist .
.wish everyone happy,frenz happy,Him happy n accept christ,pass grade 8 wif at least merit,gd health

.wish to have lotz n lotz of clothes(well which ger will find her clothes too much???)

.wish buy lotz of happy hse n hello kitty tins

.wish everytin to go smoothly for everyone

.wish for a transparent grand piano (earn $ lor :p),guitar,transparent violin

.six_ties will always be the same like before

.be able to play a piece of music tat belongs to me

.for a real nice n wonderful bdae

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